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The Milton Scribe

Tag: family

  • DC CANNABIS 

    “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)
    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    “Responsibility”

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    “Finances” (5/6/23)

    C – 300

    Car – 300

    Car ins – 200

    hlth ins – 300

    rent – 400

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest ****** ******* ****** ****** you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    “What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    “When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    “Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    “Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    “Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

    “Everything I’m Grateful for:”

    Mom & Dad   Sister & Brother   Friends : Grant, Nate, Patrick 

    Coffee    Lessons    Videos    Music    Car    Nature    Working out

    Job    Shoes     health    decision making    Freedom    Roof    Clean room

    clothes   food   water   learning   talking   entertaining   not acting like a bad person —-> being a Great Man   Prayer  visualization   Notes   writing   stay calm

    Polite   gentle   seductive   attractive    winning   God & Jesus    Love   Patience    Health   goodness

    “Cons”

    Not knowing what to do next   impatience   rage   poor   not taking care of tasks   not having money   too much eating   ******* ****  distraction   not making quick decisions   Not doing chores    lives at home still   entitled   broke   uber   scared feelings   laziness   wasting time    giving attention too easy    begging/ whining    being creepy instead of getting money    lacking fashion   Not thinking before speaking / acting 

    You must treat the most important aspect of your life with utter generosity control over your mind = control over your thoughts and therefore actions and therefore results will be in your control 

    “Energy Levels” (6/18/23)

    Too much supply, have to dump the load off the ship. is water akin to space?

    How is water possible? 

    ice asteroid

    what is the ice -> the elements colliding in space & freezing levels beyond our comprehension -> did ice come before water? thus ice being the originate of life? in relation to opposing compositions i.e. gas & liquid -> or is it gas -> ice -> liquid

    So are all organisms based? We have forms of the other does an organism need all three to exist? are other forms of composition possible

    what are you? 

    An artist?   A healer?

    Do you have a healing touch

    RB  (7/8/23)

    I’ll be good

    “Third Eye Activation” (7/10/23)

    Consciousness – intention • Dopamine -> so fucking tired of falling privy to my temptations I’m fucking done -> I’m done. No fucking more. 100% full investment into improving my life and being an absolute animal -> evolve 1% improvement Better man everyday -> GREAT MAN 

    “Feelings” (7/17/23)

    • Less fast food -> less of it • Vaping -> nicotine withdrawal • Crying -> talking about it • Touching -> ask for physicality [what do I do when you don’t want to? I feel less loved when you don’t want to] -> though I should/want to be more understand and I know that’s not the case. I hope you don’t mind me still wanting to touch you/kiss you all over 

    “Feelings (pt.2)”

    something I didn’t mention was my thoughts & feelings about why the day in particular is of interest & so that should likely be talked about / explained 

    • walks

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    “Money” (7/18/23)

    Ray Croc -> not business of burger, but in the business of Real Estate

    Asset column »»———–►

       Buy Assets

    ➥ Assets make you money 

    Accounting 

    Investing 

    Understand Markets

    “What Games do you like?” (7/20/23)

    • Gym • Comic store • Cinnamon sauce • Writing •────► publishing • Realty • Trading • Drawing • Loving 

  • Awaken to who you are ｡𖦹° (1/17/26)

    I am pain ∘ They don’t care about
    me or my family
    I done flown with a God ∘
    My pen writes the divine will
    with ink not unlike the blood of
    our Gods, given, granted and blessed
    to me so that I may share their
    righteous glory with holy
    confidence and heavenly might
    Discover how strong you really are
    Change your story change your life
    Spiritual awakening occurring
    With relentless confidence

  • To be what they need (5/26/26)

    you are so handsome
    and attractive and smart
    and clever and build immense
    wealth for yourself and take
    care of your family and
    loved ones

    (6/3/26)
    I love you

  • Confident ✧ (11/16/25)

    Stout intellectual ∘ ^most powerful mind

    Unstoppable body

    Able to take advantage of opportunities

    The best example of humanity

    You are that which people & the world look up to

    You are so attractive
    Attracting to you the most
    beautiful & fortunate
    circumstances, creating a
    beautiful life for yourself
    & those beautiful loved ones
    in your life ∘ Radiate gratitude
    Gratitude flows through &
    with your essence becoming
    bright with light of the
    Divine

    Winning Vibrations (11/16/25)

    𝄞TO BE CONTINUED🎬📼⭒˚｡⁠📽𐦂𖨆𐀪𖠋☆∘⁠˚⁠˳⁠°ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ

  • St. Thomas

  • February ’25

    Escritor de la Tierra

    listen more carefully (2/4/25)

    am wanting to be so much kinder & patient and loving to lady

    Is never wanting to lose my cool and only hold her so close all the time and be so kind and gentle and patient and loving and hold her so close in my heart even when she is not here and tell her through my soul that I love her with every drop of blood that my heart churns into my body that is hers forever.

    Thank God she was there

    I’ll be writing all the time and you’ll be getting the checks…

    I won’t forget

    Everything takes time

    Learning (Never fail her again) (2/4/25)

    Pray again!

    Never fail her again

    “And he was giving everything back, as everything must be given back, so that, passing through death, it can live forever.”

    4:44pm (2/9/25)

    I know how special this place is and I know how special a person I can be and I’m just happy to be a part of it ∘

    turns 67

    Redefine with new tools

    the Ultimate test ∘ Crystal ball

    ∘ Faster Start ∘ Stay Healthy

    ∘ Good & talented

    They’ll talk about this

    FOREVER

    Every single step -> everything you got ∘ For the person beside you

    Won (2/9/25)

    Debate ∘ Greatness ∘ What is GREATNESS? What does a GREAT [you] look & act like? ∘-> Embody your GREATEST SELF ∘ Put in the work every single year ∘ Continually winning. We know who we are ∘ We embrace who we are ∘ We Come together and take on the mission. Hard fought battle ∘ Earn Respect ∘ Give Respect

    Honesty & Natural Style (2/10/25)

    Zen – to stop thinking, temporarily -> even when you think

    (2/11/25)

    ∘ impiety 𓃊 a perceived lack of respect for something considered sacred. -> sacrilege -> large belief system disrespected -> exile

    Anaxagoras – introduced the concept of “Nous” (cosmic mind) as an ordering force -> Panspermia -> life exists throughout the universe and could be distributed everywhere -> also speculated that the sun might be just another star

    Gentle (2/12/25)

    Kindness is what I’d like to embody nowadays ♡

    Head Writer

  • My Grandma – A short story

    Escritor de la Tierra

    It had been several months before the virus spread that I had last seen my grandma. She had a growing case of dementia and was in the throes of reliving her childhood. She didn’t recognize me at all; I think she thought I was some cute boy from another neighborhood. She even acted jealous when I was giving my six year old second cousin attention and wheeled her scooter over to me to get in on the eye contact. 

    Long before her mental decline, I never really had a good relationship with her, even though she went out of her way to buy my siblings, cousins and me gifts. My mom and aunts always complained about how poorly she treated them during their childhood, and so it was confusing to see her so happy and cheerful as my mom rolled her around Walmart. 

    “You like this one?” She’d ask with glee as I fawned over a transforming spaceship. 

    “No, Ma! That’s way too expensive! He can’t…” My mom started. 

    “Oh, bashaw! He likes it, he can have it!” She insisted. 

    I think she was trying to make up for leading such a mean life. She even donated extra to her church, talked to the likes of countless strangers (even gave them money that she didn’t have) and would tell people stories about her life, mostly stories about how much her daughters mistreated her. It was a surprising sight to witness given my mom and aunt were taking care of her in her more feeble years. 

    Both of her parents had died when she was young, and I wonder if that had anything to do with the misery my mom went on about. I saw it firsthand when I was really young, when she could still walk. She and my grandfather had led unhealthy lives, him smoking whole packs of cigarettes at the family’s dining room table, her downing every piece of sugar she could get her hands on. Type 2 diabetes plagued them in their old age, and other ailments followed them like crows to corn. 

    “Oh, would you be quiet and sit still!” I overheard her yelling at no one from the dining room while my sister and I were playing in the adjacent living room. It must’ve been in regards to us, but I think her and my grandfather were too exhausted in their old age to make a more formal approach. 

    I remember her telling me about the Yankees, and so it was no surprise that in her childish reminisens that she’d go on about Mickey Mantle and their glory days. 

    “Did you go to Yankee games when you were young, Grandma?” I asked her one day in a car ride for one of her regular hospital visits. 

    “Oh, yes, but we mainly saw the news in the paper. That Mickey Mantle was something else,” she said before gazing in my direction, “he was an ambidextrous batter, you know?!” 

    Looking back on it, I think she thought I looked like him, or at least reminded her of him with my protruded forehead, blonde hair and cheeky smile. That, or she just thought he was handsome and that I should try out for baseball. Whatever the reason, it’s probably my favorite memory of her. 

    She had already been in hospice when the virus hit her, and it didn’t take long before it took her life. I didn’t feel much of anything in the wake of her death. It was as if all of my mom’s and aunt’s memories had become part of me, so I just felt numb to it all. There was also something disingenuous about her kindness. She would usually greet us with smiles and excitement, but as visits went on, her frown became the staying notion and not much was talked about beyond regrets and complaints about past mistakes and unfortunate circumstances. 

    “Ma, dad never said that, that just…” My mom would start. 

    “Oh, caw, come on,” my Grandma spat, “you don’t know what you’re talking about,” as she’d roll her eyes. 

    I wonder if the virus had been painful for her, if she had even known about the ‘new plague’ in her state of unbeing. The darkness that had come over her mind was enough to shroud the memory of even her daughters and son from present sight, so what was one more ailment to her? I like to think that she barely felt infected by the time the care center had called my mom to tell us she had tested positive. 

    “Mom’s got the virus,” My mom told my dad after getting off the phone. 

    “Oh, no…” My dad replied, setting aside whatever work he was busy with, “that might just do it…”

    “Hm…” was all my mom could muster. Her and my aunt were the only two out of five that took care of her as she needed more and more support. I think by then, she was just tired and depressed from taking care of someone with a fleeting memory that barked complaints and orders about pain and medication. 

    I started to think if I could have done more; not about her health but as a better grandson. I wondered if I could have visited her more when her mind was still all there, asked her about life growing up, maybe uncover dark secrets that’d explain the looming unhappiness that afflicted our family. Mostly though, I never questioned it. I felt as if she didn’t deserve such effort from me, even as I got old enough to drive and be able to visit her more often. This sort of bothered me, but it never motivated me enough to change my thinking. I thought “since she treated my mom like shit, why would I treat her any differently?” 

    One night, years after she had died and the virus had been suppressed to a passing conversation, I asked my mom about my Grandma’s final moments. 

    “So how long had she had it before she died from the virus?” 

    “Oh, she didn’t die from the virus. It was phenomenological. It even killed her doctor, that’s what got the ball rolling on them locking down their facilities.” She replied, to my astonishment.

    “What? I thought you said she caught it right at the beginning and that’s why…” 

    “Well, she did catch it, but then she tested negative and lived a few weeks after that. I must not have told you, yeah the employees were all shocked.”

    I stood there in shock as she explained how her body somehow killed off the virus and she had continued on. 

    “Wait, then, what happened? Did she just die from old age, her dementia?”

    “Hm, maybe. I firmly believe she died from depression.”

    “Depression?” I knew my Grandma was sad, but she didn’t come across as someone who was medically depressed enough to die from it. 

    “Yeah, because no one could visit her at that time. Everyone was still on edge about the virality of it, whether it was airborne and so forth. With no one around, she must have lost something more in the midst of losing her mind. As if nobody cared about her. I knew other old people who died because of that. Your great grandmother on your grandpa’s side died a month after your great grandfather because she missed him so much, oh you knew that…” 

    I was beside myself. All those years of telling people she had died from the virus, and she had gotten it, but I had no idea she got over it. Then the heavy really hit harder. What if I had visited more? What if I had gone to her with gifts that she would have enjoyed, like how I enjoyed the transforming spaceship she had gotten for me at the reluctance of my mother? What if I had shown her that I did love her, even with all of the vitriol that was cast between her and her children, and subsequently me? Would she have lived longer? Would she not have fallen so privy to her dementia? Whatever the case, something about her beating the virus, a feat not even the healthiest victims could achieve, in the paroxysm of her mind decaying, made me feel proud to be her grandson. 

  • Syncrocity

    Escritor de la Tierra

    Quantum enthrallment continues its baffling procedure amongst our unknowing ongoing. This is in light of total dominance reconciled via certain radiant intake. If understood beyond mere simple magical happenings, these mechanisms may prove expoundable by psychological means. In contemplation of the character of one’s own individual undertaking, there is a clear patternized unresistance present. These patterns defy expected routine via altered realization upon witness / sensory intake. One may look to the idea of a double appearance of an experience within a single day, both experiences of which caught the main conscious focus to whatever degree, the latter doubly so given the recurrence of the former. Such passive acceptance of these occurrences holds power & magic with uncertainty notwithstanding. The certainty lies only within belief in the system of nerval connectivity present throughout the dimension of standing breath. We can embark upon non-breathing realms within the telepathic resonances climbed upon by peaceful intentions, though these can be fast and unnoticed reckonings, thus must be thought of to the creative extent, at the least, in order to have a semblance of capturing definition upon natural gratification. If one can indeed realize and embark upon the syncing levels naturally present within their breathing moments, of which were placed on them by both choice & chance, then the expounding can be intangible in glory. It is difficult to underscore this because it already comes so naturally that one hardly needs to realize this in order to fulfill certain potential. With that said, purposeful endeavoring to connect those loose parts you find vividly present in ambiguous manner scattered throughout not only your waking eyesight, but your inner vision, then perhaps you will awaken those moods so desired not only within yourself but also within those parts of which will be uplifted by your innate glorious reconciliation, in peace. 

  • Diamonds

    Escritor de la Tierra

    Twice now and way more times than that have I tried to give up on missing people. Those people who were closest to me are so hard not to cry over when I realize they are no longer key components of my life and the deeper the memory of most recent regurgitation, the harder it is to look at it without despair. Sometimes I feel like I’m overreacting. But my biggest concern is that they don’t care. I fear they never cared. I believe it never mattered and that might scare me most. Maybe I’m a passing thought in their lives. I like to think that they may miss me. If they don’t, so be it. Who am I to them anymore anyway? Nothing but a memory as they seem to be to me. I’d like to think they’re the base of who I am today, that I have been shaped by the past. I should let go. Or should I hold on? Either way is painful. Both feel impossible. That gives memories a convenient feel. All I have are the memories of which are totems in time. Some are beautiful, others distraught. They’re pillars of life which I can’t cut down, though I may leave them to oxidate, they’re stuck standing in the lands of history and hold structure to buildings that once bustled with activity. Maybe those buildings are still active with new people whose presence brings on life that supports the buildings as thoroughly as the past. To learn from the past is probably the most valuable option in the longstanding showdown between me and my memories. I wish I could repeat the past sometimes, but then I wonder why I would want to. I’d want to do things differently, do things the right way as I look back on the wrongs. But what’s the difference between then and now other than the people? Why not act in the way now that you think you should’ve then? There’d be less regret in that sense, and greater exploration, discovery of possibility. It’s difficult not to think to myself “won’t I just be building memories of which I will look down upon with despair as I realize they’re no longer for me to take part in?” Everything changes. Why would you want things to stay the same? Everything feels virtually the same anyway, so why not recharge, refresh? Let it breathe because it could stop breathing at any moment. You won’t always be happy about it, but why would you want to always be content? Doesn’t that seem lazy? You know there are other problems to tackle other than your pillars of the past, of which are entirely immovable. Ah, maybe there’s a key there. If the pillars of the past are immovable, and you’re currently building future pillars of the past in the present, doesn’t that reveal a certain strength of which your humanity gives to the present? And in that case, the future? It’s almost as if your actions are time travelers and that they will always be shaping the world around you no matter how deep and lost below they sink. This gives memories the quality of diamonds in a sense. Some may be rough and almost unknowable while others are fine cut and precious. If you think the memory is fine cut, hold on to it if you believe that suits you best. If you find a memory that’s rough, it’s probably better not to change it, but if you try, you might find it was one of the most beautiful memories that you left out and once you’ve cut it and found this out, you’ll hold to it forever if you value it enough. As for the oncoming chances to find new precious rocks in time, well, that’s up to you to decide how you’re going to cut what you’ve discovered.

  • Daydreaming

    Escritor de la Tierra

    December 25 2017 11:13 am
    Laying in bed after amazing toothbrushing with my brand new teeth cleaning kit!!! My family is so amazing each and every single day and God bless my life to where they go out of their way to get me things they believe would make me happy. To think they pay that much close attention to get things that I didn’t even know would make me happy but they would based on my behavior. I’m really disappointed in myself for not being a better brother better son in getting my siblings and parents bomb ass gifts but I did get each of them something cool and funny and thoughtful. But it really does bring to mind my desire to bring more money into my life in order to positively influence the lives of others in ways I could only dream of doing but can’t afford right now. Like a mad max car for my dad or a house with an incredible kitchen/library for my mom or a super tight Porsche for ***** or a shit ton of camping gear for *******. With that being said, it also serves as a continuous reminder as to what my motives are for doing the things I do. Right now, I must be better at making money. I could easily make 100+ bucks a day through simple jobs. My main work would be ******* at ******* ****** ****** *******. But goddamit I am so tired of that bullshit. I wanted to ***** ****** ** *** ******* **** because of all the dreaming I was doing just sitting around doing next to absolutely nothing while my brain feels this extreme capability to do just about anything I set my heart and mind to. With that being said, it’s best I get at least a little productive today with my actions…let’s get this ball rolling!! Signing off…11:22am