Tag: journal

  • “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)
    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    “Responsibility”

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    “Finances” (5/6/23)

    C – 300

    Car – 300

    Car ins – 200

    hlth ins – 300

    rent – 400

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest ****** ******* ****** ****** you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    “What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    “When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    “Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    “Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    “Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

    “Everything I’m Grateful for:”

    Mom & Dad   Sister & Brother   Friends : Grant, Nate, Patrick 

    Coffee    Lessons    Videos    Music    Car    Nature    Working out

    Job    Shoes     health    decision making    Freedom    Roof    Clean room

    clothes   food   water   learning   talking   entertaining   not acting like a bad person —-> being a Great Man   Prayer  visualization   Notes   writing   stay calm

    Polite   gentle   seductive   attractive    winning   God & Jesus    Love   Patience    Health   goodness

    “Cons”

    Not knowing what to do next   impatience   rage   poor   not taking care of tasks   not having money   too much eating   ******* ****  distraction   not making quick decisions   Not doing chores    lives at home still   entitled   broke   uber   scared feelings   laziness   wasting time    giving attention too easy    begging/ whining    being creepy instead of getting money    lacking fashion   Not thinking before speaking / acting 

    You must treat the most important aspect of your life with utter generosity control over your mind = control over your thoughts and therefore actions and therefore results will be in your control 

    “Energy Levels” (6/18/23)

    Too much supply, have to dump the load off the ship. is water akin to space?

    How is water possible? 

    ice asteroid

    what is the ice -> the elements colliding in space & freezing levels beyond our comprehension -> did ice come before water? thus ice being the originate of life? in relation to opposing compositions i.e. gas & liquid -> or is it gas -> ice -> liquid

    So are all organisms based? We have forms of the other does an organism need all three to exist? are other forms of composition possible

    what are you? 

    An artist?   A healer?

    Do you have a healing touch

    RB  (7/8/23)

    I’ll be good

    “Third Eye Activation” (7/10/23)

    Consciousness – intention • Dopamine -> so fucking tired of falling privy to my temptations I’m fucking done -> I’m done. No fucking more. 100% full investment into improving my life and being an absolute animal -> evolve 1% improvement Better man everyday -> GREAT MAN 

    “Feelings” (7/17/23)

    • Less fast food -> less of it • Vaping -> nicotine withdrawal • Crying -> talking about it • Touching -> ask for physicality [what do I do when you don’t want to? I feel less loved when you don’t want to] -> though I should/want to be more understand and I know that’s not the case. I hope you don’t mind me still wanting to touch you/kiss you all over 

    “Feelings (pt.2)”

    something I didn’t mention was my thoughts & feelings about why the day in particular is of interest & so that should likely be talked about / explained 

    • walks

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    “Money” (7/18/23)

    Ray Croc -> not business of burger, but in the business of Real Estate

    Asset column »»———–►

       Buy Assets

    ➥ Assets make you money 

    Accounting 

    Investing 

    Understand Markets

    “What Games do you like?” (7/20/23)

    • Gym • Comic store • Cinnamon sauce • Writing •────► publishing • Realty • Trading • Drawing • Loving 

  • Gosh it’s crazy it’s almost been a year
    since I ripped into this little thing.
    I still have yet to do anything
    substantial with my life. I’m being
    hard on myself, I’ve certainly
    worked hard but I could surely work
    harder and become something or
    someone so righteously great

    What you can do is

    -Research -Apply yourself
    -Attain higher living

    Breathe, be easy, respectful
    loving especially

  • Markers
    highlighters
    sketchbook

  • In contemplation of time, I recognize that the clocks do run.
    It’s strange how time moves differently at different times
    As if each time has its own personality, or state of unique being

  • Go to Eiffel tower 
    Go to space 
    See the clear night sky in a desert 
    Wander the woods of Oregon 
    Trip acid for a month 
    Go cliff diving/gliding 
    Go the Washington monument 
    Visit Colorado dispensaries 
    Visit every state where weed is legal 
    Go to a festival

  • Significant source of creativity

    Ultimate artist making your life out to become a beautiful creation your beautiful/wealthy life

    Ornament mistletoe candy cane tree of love and prosperity
  • The fires of victory burn bright as glory is captured & held with loving gratitude

    (9/13/25)

    In being better, may we take back control of our hearts & minds as we recapture lost souls. May these words bring you a sense of fresh air that we may breathe in together in peaceful solitude.✧

    Beautiful words reminding us of the importance of rest. They hunger for your release – the animal pent up in a cage

    Restless as the light of stars.⛧

  • Loving beautiful righteous gratitude flowing as your powerfully magnetic body, mind & spirit bring you great bounties of wealth & success in your effort filled endeavors fulfilling your greatest dreams so that your most powerful desires come true & you become the healthiest, most powerful being you can ∘ Rising with the love of a righteous, peaceful king, your gratitude reigns as a top notch standards for your beautiful kingdom much like the kingdom of your royal body ∘ Immense success flows to you easily ❖

    We’re excited to have you here; fired up.

  • Coming back to life (8/1/25)

    from the depths of darkness that once held your soul so bound do you now emerge with glorious divine light everlasting through the rainiest days so that new life may feel your radiance as it seeks to flourish in the wake of your loving caress

    Virginia (8/2/25)

    Virginia is a wonderful state

    I’d love to live there

    It’s where I’ve met so many friends

    lovely, lovely Virginia

    Energy flowing through it’s many trees, trees are actually quite green

    And that’s actually in Northern VA

    I love North Virginia, maybe because I’ve seen it grow over the years. I wish I could afford to live there, alas I don’t think I will be able to live near there much longer. If I do move, I hope I like the new place as much as Nova. If I stay, then hopefully things get better

    Make some more (8/2/25)

    Money Money!

    – Vincent

    is so so good love

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    mighty fine details

    every little bit counts

    write your heart into infinity

    you lovely space monkey

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    Flip a couple bricks

    sell em by the zip

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    Bring forth love &

    laughter ∘ Exude joyous vibrations as you flow through the universe

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    What to experience

    What you have is the experience to be seriously rad as you create a prosperous life for yourself in the righteous pursuit of bringing joy & strength to other people as we share in the energy flocculation that we call life & getting along together as beings of the same cloth ∘ let us hold each other hand in hand until the end where we will look back on our success with a curious amazement as to how we could have accomplished such feats

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    The sound of a deer (8/3/25)

    Howl of the wolf

    through the quiet of the night

    •∘

    fly an airplane

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    Oats are good for your heart so I started drinking oat milk but then