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The Milton Scribe

Tag: feelings

  • DC CANNABIS 

    “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)
    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    “Responsibility”

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    “Finances” (5/6/23)

    C – 300

    Car – 300

    Car ins – 200

    hlth ins – 300

    rent – 400

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest ****** ******* ****** ****** you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    “What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    “When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    “Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    “Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    “Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

    “Everything I’m Grateful for:”

    Mom & Dad   Sister & Brother   Friends : Grant, Nate, Patrick 

    Coffee    Lessons    Videos    Music    Car    Nature    Working out

    Job    Shoes     health    decision making    Freedom    Roof    Clean room

    clothes   food   water   learning   talking   entertaining   not acting like a bad person —-> being a Great Man   Prayer  visualization   Notes   writing   stay calm

    Polite   gentle   seductive   attractive    winning   God & Jesus    Love   Patience    Health   goodness

    “Cons”

    Not knowing what to do next   impatience   rage   poor   not taking care of tasks   not having money   too much eating   ******* ****  distraction   not making quick decisions   Not doing chores    lives at home still   entitled   broke   uber   scared feelings   laziness   wasting time    giving attention too easy    begging/ whining    being creepy instead of getting money    lacking fashion   Not thinking before speaking / acting 

    You must treat the most important aspect of your life with utter generosity control over your mind = control over your thoughts and therefore actions and therefore results will be in your control 

    “Energy Levels” (6/18/23)

    Too much supply, have to dump the load off the ship. is water akin to space?

    How is water possible? 

    ice asteroid

    what is the ice -> the elements colliding in space & freezing levels beyond our comprehension -> did ice come before water? thus ice being the originate of life? in relation to opposing compositions i.e. gas & liquid -> or is it gas -> ice -> liquid

    So are all organisms based? We have forms of the other does an organism need all three to exist? are other forms of composition possible

    what are you? 

    An artist?   A healer?

    Do you have a healing touch

    RB  (7/8/23)

    I’ll be good

    “Third Eye Activation” (7/10/23)

    Consciousness – intention • Dopamine -> so fucking tired of falling privy to my temptations I’m fucking done -> I’m done. No fucking more. 100% full investment into improving my life and being an absolute animal -> evolve 1% improvement Better man everyday -> GREAT MAN 

    “Feelings” (7/17/23)

    • Less fast food -> less of it • Vaping -> nicotine withdrawal • Crying -> talking about it • Touching -> ask for physicality [what do I do when you don’t want to? I feel less loved when you don’t want to] -> though I should/want to be more understand and I know that’s not the case. I hope you don’t mind me still wanting to touch you/kiss you all over 

    “Feelings (pt.2)”

    something I didn’t mention was my thoughts & feelings about why the day in particular is of interest & so that should likely be talked about / explained 

    • walks

    •

    “Money” (7/18/23)

    Ray Croc -> not business of burger, but in the business of Real Estate

    Asset column »»———–►

       Buy Assets

    ➥ Assets make you money 

    Accounting 

    Investing 

    Understand Markets

    “What Games do you like?” (7/20/23)

    • Gym • Comic store • Cinnamon sauce • Writing •────► publishing • Realty • Trading • Drawing • Loving 

  • realizing reality (4/13/26)

    for whatever reason everything you do is super righteous so continue to be BOLD with your actions as you realize your dreams into reality you beautiful wonderful soul of love & curiosity of which is of whilst simultaneously seeking that which one considers wealth, from financial dominance to a healthy life style that brings you love, life & joy bountiful and forever until that which is the end feels most appropriate ♡

    Was it not? (4/13/26)
    the way in which the words fill the page is nearly haunting – it was good to learn of the red, for now you know how one uses the red, albeit you own incomplete restitution, you now clearly hold some sort of stone that gives you that particular awareness…
    We wonder what you’re having us wait for – some of them have questioned your commitment to the cause; some still question their recollection over their motivations! Was it not this creature who carried the coin beyond believable heights within impossible time frames?

    & always (4/13/26)
    That which is life continues
    thank you for letting me write ∘ easy reading for you, you silly little love spreading that which is so good to so many lovely people telling one another they love each other with all the cells that float through their everloving plains living they live for you to see what you are what you could possibly become what you want to be and what you continue to be forever

    I WiSh (4/13/26)

    Markers
    highlighters
    sketchbook

    I am that which lost his friends

    letting go is hard

    I wish you liked me more

    all the days go by and we still haven’t even talked to each other since
    Everyday things just get harder
    I think it’s close to done for me

    that matters (4/13/26)
    you are such a beautiful star
    so full of light and wonderful
    radiance that glows so divine
    as if to kiss us all with
    your display of heavenly
    glory, a true spirit of
    matter and reactions
    that make for one big
    reaction that matters

  • BO$$ Money (12/11/25)

    Make money from your content
    Hopefully they

    like it!

    (12/28/25)

    I was quite creative on both of these days ∘ I’m surprised I haven’t written in this fucking thing since then. Life smells really good sometimes, for no immediately apparent reason, so all we can do is sit back and enjoy the odor with a hesitant composure as to what may be true about the occurrence.

    More to go! (12/28/25)

    I like to write words because they are very pretty & I can make them very kind & powerful at the same time no matter what that’s what’s so interesting about words for me I guess is their innate ability to impose within anyone certain feelings and understandings of which they themselves expound upon in their most minute mannerisms, so clever are the ways in which they hide their thoughts, yet we can still feel them so clearly as if to be reaching out physically through mere uncanny telepathy via pattern recognition

    Writing your goals (12/28/25)

    I have so much more to write, wish I’d take more time to do so. I wonder if writing actually improves my life. I used to accept just feeling different meant that all of this was worth it, but my moneys are still low; Would writing … well, let me try and we’ll see:

    My goal is to finish

  • Righteous Beautiful Victory (10/5)

    Glory flowing through your very being ✧ Ultra warrior of divinity • Lovely righteous wonder

    The entity of magical resolution

    you are that which is beautiful

    your blessed vibrations bring the most joyful feelings to the spaces around you • Colorful heart and loving soul • Blood of love

  • March, 2025 ☘︎

    Escritor de la Tierra

    “Today” (3/17/25)

    the other day I probably said the worst things I’ve ever said to her. I’m trying to not be negative or mean & positivity feels fake so I just want to relay facts at this point. I’m not happy with being disrespected in our relationship. In fact I am certain she doesn’t respect me, although she has been nice. Hope she has a good, long & happy life because I do not know if we are together anymore.

    “Lifechanging” (3/27/25)

    yale • Harvard • Ivy • College student • Libraries • Studying • Success • Academia • Freedoms • Growth • Learning • Development • Truth & Freedom • Strategy • Private profit • Daring • Voyages • Frighten the authorities • Fiery Battle • Treachery • Piracy • Ceased • Transforms crime into politics

    “Super Righteous” (3/28/25)

    What can I do to reach divine being within myself so that my physicality may become Godlike in structure & mind & depth ~> love • heart & soul

    What do you change from them?

    Zarephath • Drenched

    Hometown Boy

    Mood changes

    Righteous times

    Righteous measures

    Righteous body

    Serving my people

    “Simple Kindness” (3/28/25)

    Calm care • Salvation of love

    How did Paul die? Decapitation by Romans

    Tell us that story

    Journeys • Rented rooms

    First he heals them

    “Begin Again” (3/30/25)

    We are exhausted • What is scarlet?

    .

    .

    Flickering light

    their city

    feels natural to have you here

    “Power & Control” (3/31/25)

    Power to not get upset with your loved ones ∘ Control over your actions ∘~> what is in my control is my limbs & my facial expressions & my thoughts ∘-> it is sometimes difficult to control my thoughts -> that is to say I’m not quite sure which ones might pop up within my brain at any given point in time. How much power do you have over the things within your control? I think I have more power over the things within my control than I act. Imagine if you act so kind & patient while getting so smart & strong and believing in yourself & that you are so beautiful & attractive & loved

    “Exit West [Book analysis]” (3/31/25)

    The novel establishes borders insofar as describing the locations of certain activities. Beyond that, the novel breaks down the idea of borders by leaving places (including their city of residence) unnamed and untitled. This is a curious choice by Hamid, as it brings forth a sense of mystification, leaving the reader to fill and/or appreciate such gaps. It also brings to mind the idea of an egoless war, defying the importance placed upon nationalism.

    -> internal borders

    -> Nadia vs. Saeed’s personal boundaries

    “Mindful vs. Mindless” (3/31/25)

    Mindful = having fun -> act of noticing

    VS.

    mindlessness -> focus is mindless

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    enhanced, charismatic

  • Resentment Toward Yourself

    Escritor de la Tierra

    Do you have resentment towards yourself? Are you unhappy with the quality of human you came into the world as? What’s so wrong? Does your brain hurt to think about…that part…and how it makes you feel to think about how other people feel about it? And so be it, but what is it truly? Is it dissatisfaction or envy? Hm why not both? What is it then? Envy formed out of dissatisfaction? Or vice versa? Hm. And what does that mean for the likes of those around you? Must they suffer at your suffering? What a drag. Is that why they’re called drag queens? They’re all dragging us down with their ultimate showcasing of dissatisfaction with their natural born bodies in embodying that of which does not physically appear when they enter the shower? This cannot be the case, can it? Are our identities based on envy? I don’t even mean envy, I mean a certain adherence to an image that has overtaken one’s mind. I think my relationships with both women and men alike have shaped my identity, and although it may be a world of my own making, is it not those around us that assist in shaping our own inner realms? To such a degree, I most certainly may have myself had an impact on the identities of those I’ve come into close contact with. Thus it comes across as a nearly inescapable circumstance that we as living organisms undergo in our fluctuations through our vibrational undertakings via living. Would it benefit anyone to remove oneself from the whole of it? It comes across as unlikely that a mass flux will suddenly seek such isolation, so one may likely find plenty of space to develop an identity beyond the immediate surface of every day interactions. The key at that point is embarking on the meditative mind, of which will be in conjecture with the idea of enlightenment, if that is what one so desires, otherwise, perhaps at least, they will find solace in emptying the mind of memories, at least temporarily depending on the individuals connection to such memories (and the value placed towards them).

    If this all sounds too weighty, then continue on the path of identity swapping. My estimate is that it may just be an element of societal normality, thus pivotal in the process of collective evolution, thus likely evolving the individual (albeit blips of resistance as keys enter their respective holes) to such an extent that may blow any idea of resentment (and ultimately rejection) of ones natural born physical state out of the spectrum of thought entirely. that is to say our evolution may propel us forward with such masterfulness that we won’t even notice the shift in attitudes that will occur collectively, of which will be a soft, gentle, yet massive wave of acceptance that will coarse over each and every one involved in that warping being. It may in fact be reminiscent of that individual who sought escape from identity sharing, that is to say that the whole will be like the one, and so separation will be simultaneously assumed while also never existing to a most comfortable extent. In trying to understand this moving forward, perhaps take a really long time to look at yourself in the mirror and try to think about as many other people than yourself as you can while you’re staring into your own eyes. Try not to get lost in the abyss on such an endeavor, although if you do, have fun!

  • Poetic Reckonings

    Escritor de la Tierra

    Fortitude flying through flames

    of Doubt – Did double down to

    dampen the flames that rose high

    Then, without warning, we were

    all wet from the tears of God

    that did flow with our timelines

    Enough to fill and refill the craters

    of the moon – many moons

    pass before I run away with

    energy cloaked carefully,

    until then, please take my hand

    And we will fly through those

    flames the sun so playfully

    yet dangerously tickles our

    sides with.