Tag: history

  • “October” (10/1/21)

    Everything takes place under the sign of love. 

    (10/2/21)i

    Amazing • Prepared • Ecstatic • Desired 

    What is it you desire? Ultimate glory 

    Control • Force • Death • Murder • Mass • Massacre • Expression • Fight me • You won’t • Bravery • Lack Fear • Fuck 

    Absorb power • Meditate • Conquer 

    No ground to stand on • Twitter Fingers • Arms Hands legs feet

    Spread love not hate • Show them just how much you love this 

    • Be kind Be merciful • Be Stronger

    • Knock them the fuck out • One with Nature • Resolute • Complete

    “October” (10/2/21)ii

    Express your own stoic understanding Be your natural self -> spread that joy with what others might view as seamlessly easy. Penetrate their minds and bodies, heart & soul with your version of the planet. What will it take other than all of your strength & willingness -> determination -> Go on & carry yourself with unstoppable fury & achieve your goal of powerful glory -> take control of your own actions -> watch as the others follow suit. Take them to the gates of heaven & demand ownership. Feel God’s presence within yourself & know that GLORY IS YOURS FOREVER.

    “October” (10/2/21)iii

    Think more about others – first arose in the person an eager want – those who can do this have the whole world with them, those who cannot walk a lonesome way 

    ₊P‧r.i°n.c⋆i✮p⋆l.e°s.:‧W₊i₊n‧&.i°n.f⋆l✮u⋆e.n°c.e‧₊ 

    1) Don’t criticize, condemn, or complain

    2) Give honest, sincere appreciation (praise)

    3) Arouse in another person an eager want

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    • You can make more friends in 2 months by becoming interesting in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you. Give them your best Care about other • genuine interest in people • Grateful for people

    “October” (10/2/21)iv

    I Love my audience • Music food ^for the soul 

    Unselfish • Character • Strength 

    (10/3/21)i

    Wrong going: things aren’t always going your way, how will you react? When things take time and so you can’t mess around, bring out the strength and softness to carefully but swiftly get through it, AiM for the ‘A’ Get the A 

    Extra Credit Assignment

    Traffic can be raunch, will you resist Road rage? Can you avoid cursing? Show people you care and not express guff? Be okay then people don’t think about you? 

    “October” (10/3/21)ii

    Will adversity drain you or can you be patient, positive, cheerful, and genuinely care about other people? Express goodwill, be good, be a golden champion, a true good person, walk high as you will see the crippled and smile, be inviting with your good attitude. Deep breathing leads to deep thinking

    “Good manners -> petty sacrifices” – Emerson 

    Remember their names 

    Praise • love • Radiate Sensuality 

    Bring joy, pleasure, fun, magic

    “October” (10/3/21)iii

    Most stimulating 

    Interesting conversationalist 

    Interesting ideas • Prepared for anything 

    N⦿t ❡ivin❡ uṗ.Ever.

    Being chased through the woods – no context. Pale person, gothic looking -> terrifying, person being chased already dirty, bloody Fast running, panic stricken face Grimace looking face on chaser -> yellow teeth, red eyes, heavy breathing Finds edge of woods, gets to rest stop, goes to gas station / 7/11 type, main runs in, clerk, a few customers, spirits to back, chaser comes in, the Door, sprints toward main, is held up

    “October” (10/3/21)iv

    I love the Washington Football Team 

    We can be better -> We have to be better. H○LY Keeṗing • kudos to those around you -> others -> perceive life from their eyes • • • lovely vibes 

    A+ student: end the semester with straight A’s • Read • Write 

    Bring the Glory of the Spirit into the world, help others, let other help you, be together with the families that structure our societal needs -> and then, when get what we truly want ○〢~───

    Become an inspiring embodiment of what it means to be a good human 

    “October” (10/3/21)v

    Achieve greatness by reaching new heights on a consistent basis • Be Love •-> Spread the Spirit, feel the GROWTH Among all who choose to allow it to enter within their own embodiments of that God who watches over them with endless love, an easy reminder as to why and how to live in the gift that is the Earth. In contemplation of Adam & Eve, We still thank God for guiding us through the reality of all knowing by way of the fruit from which was introduced & tempted to by the serpent ˖*°࿐ •*⁀➷ And the two did accept with curiosity great. 

    “October ༒︎” (10/3/21)vi

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    “October” (10/4/21)

    Don’t make rash decisions in the midst of emotional turmoil. What can you see coming? If everyone ate only what they needed, there would be.

    • Spontaneous Solidarity • Complex situation • moving parts • Test your abilities – Go! 

    I have to Continue

    “October” (10/5/21)i

    • “How unlucky I am that this should happen to me. But not at all. Perhaps say how lucky I am that I am not broken by what has happened, and I am not afraid of what is about to happen. For the same blow might have stolen anyone, but not many would have absorbed it without capitulation & complaint.” – Marcus Aurelius

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    Think of others, adopt their Perspective.

    ⚬ “The only thing we need to do is be nice and do good work” ⚬

    -Matt so co ⚬ National Youth Theatre 

    “October 🎃 ✶⋆.˚Love ✶in✶ Color✶⋆.˚” (10/5/21)ii

    Being Excellent at what you do, and being good to people. -> Proud of yourself & the work you do & the way that you treat people 

    Be nice, Do Good 

    Important people in your life. Things come & go, family is with. 

    Lion King 🜲

    S m i l e 

    Okay to let people in 

    O p e n y o u r h e a r t 

    Share yourself with good people ⚬—> ASPiRE

    “October𖤐” (10/5/21)iii

    LAW : Always make other people feel important. John Dooey said, “that the DESiRE to be important is the deepest urge in human Nature” 

    “the deepest principle in human Nature is the craving to be appreciated.” -> differentiates us from the animals, responsible for civilization itself

    Zoroaster – Persia

    Valley of Han -> Daoism 

    Do unto others as you would have other do unto you 

    important, sincere appreciation 

    hearty in their approbation, lavish in Praise

    “October  .” (10/5/21)iv

    Hearty in your approbation, lavish in your PRAiSE  LAVISH in your

    PRAiSe𖥠      

    Good Breeding ⚬ Halkane ⚬ 

    ✶ Dante Gabriel Rosetti ✶ 

    Be Brilliant • Literary Artists 

    Emblazoned • Profiting by their advice and inspired by their encouragement he launched upon a career that emblazoned his name across the Sky. Power of sincere, heartfelt appreciation. Make people feel important. Self-confidence. Earn the right, Earn your honors Advance yourself • Good enough

    “October” (10/5/21)v

    Wise, positive, voice – deep desire to feel important 

    Y🅞u ARE

    IMP⚬RTANT

    • Everyone you meet feels they are superior to you -> a sure way to their hearts is to let them realize in some subtle way that you recognize their importance, recognize it sincerely “Every man is my superior in some way, in that: I learn of him” – Emerson

    Be Exceptional Humble 

    Pirate Story • ☠ Love Built

    built w/ love

    “October  w.w” (10/5/21)vi

    Fight/HATRED,FiGHT Bigotry

    If you thought I’d leave you were wrong Because I won’t stop holding on. 

    EMPIRE ⋮ centuries long war 

    GREECE 𖥠 Ottoman Rule • Castille

    Venice • Importance in Venice • Sea Power

    England • Models Self on Venice • Sea

    Battle / Ship / Merchant fleet

    Commercial power • land power 

    England • interested • Dominate 

    Silk Route • Famous • Orient 

    Link between Istanbul & Europe 

    Trading

    “October” (10/7/21)i

    Rounded out notions of glorious conceptualization. 

    • People want a feeling of importance 

    You can’t teach them anything, you can only hope they can find it within themselves. 

    We sometimes find ourselves changing our minds without any resistance or heavy emotion, but if we are told we’re wrong, we resent people and harden our heart. We are incredibly heedless in the formation of our beliefs, but find ourselves filled with an elicit passion for them whenever anyone proposes to rob us of their companionship. It is not the ideas themselves that are dear

    “October” (10/7/21)ii

    to us, but our self – esteem which is threatened -> “my” -> property reckoned with, beginning of wisdom 

    Permit myself to understand the other person 

    Not say anything Dogmatic • Speak/keep points generally • Zero need for Argument 

    Agree with thine adversary quickly. – Jesus

    “Be diplomatic, it will help you gain your point.” -King Akhtoi [Egypt]

    Don’t Argue with partner, friends, coworkers, family, adversaries, boss, anyone – Don’t Argue with them 

    Don’t tell them they’re wrong • show Respect • If you’re wrong, admit it • Park 

    “October” (10/7/21)iii

    Self-criticism • Negative outcomes for the day – What’s the worst that could go wrong? What is the worst that may happen? What are the chances of it happening? What do you do during those moments? 

    love letters • ADMiRATiON

    Union 

    Gentle, kind, honey, reason

    Virtue

    Make your rhetoric a magical experience; Power of Poetry 

    Achieve confidence in our own wisdom through deception, not knowing that we do not know 

    Provisional knowledge 

    “October” (10/7/21)iv

    “Speech is a powerful Lord” – Gorgias 

    Is language deceitful? Magical words are drugs 

    Manpower, body beauty, soul wisdom

    action virtue, speech truth

    Stop Fear + Banish Grief •÷•

    Create Joy •x• Nurture Pity 

    Love has the divine power of the Gods 

    Praise of Helen; Diversion to myself 

    • Speculate, character, plot, diction, song, thought ⚬ PLot is soul of the tragedy. Plots must have length but must easily be taken in by memory. 

    “October” (10/8/21)i

    Why don’t you like Acid anymore? Is it too disturbing, the way it sends you into a keen awareness of your own mortality? Are the vibrations emitted from your body too much for you to adopt? How does being sane compare? Don’t you find it heavenly? ANd how sad is it when it’s over? Don’t you wish you could do it all again? Do it all over again? At the same time, you reach a certain tiredness, a boredom, a frightful frustration, a dreary depression – and so what then? Are not the weight of such instances substantial enough for you to always consider the end to be not so much a very bad thing after nostalgia?

    “October” (10/8/21)ii

    And so we continue through October, fighting our battles with endless positivity, optimism, gratitude and most importantly, hope. We shan’t ever give it up, for it’s a beautiful drive not easily given up for some cheap reality.

    “October” (10/8/21)iii

    Family Guy episode ideas:

    • Sci-fi-trilogy -> Star trek season -> other sci-fi classics -> fantasy -> 

    *Alien series -> Roger / American Dad -> Guardians of the Galaxy -> spoon 

    • Mystery • Literature • Classical • Oriental • Ghost • Shakespeare • Milton • Enoch • Trip • Festival • Journey -> Center of Earth

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    “October•” (10/9/21) 

    Terry ⚬ Gibson • Young • Allen • Payne 

    Sweat • Collins • Holcomb • Fuller 

    Thomas • Juan Soto

    The Sound of Change • You’re building it up! 

    Winds • Ray Bradbury 

    Taking it down  Keep holding you gron

    Double Edge Sword

    • White characters

    • Vampire can’t see face in mirror • Alien + Full movie • topic Proposal

  • The radiance of the Lord & Gods of the ancients falls with generosity and salience into the fabrics of the third dimensional matrix • Super victorious vibrations flowing to and from your blessed body as your muscles become super righteous with strength from blood blessed with divinity supporting those organisms and settings around you with potent generosity inching from fingertips that grip the mighty flaming sword so bright and divine as it glows with the great gift of Archangel Michael ∘ Your supreme entity inspires millions and carries significant joy and wonder as the people feel their faces become elated in your presence and in total awe of your words so articulate that the words words are felt as seriously intended mechanisms that fly through the air into the ears of the most righteous listeners and eyes of the readers

    You are most wonderful

    Your being is mighty in stature as you carry and swing your limbs so cool and loving as to pronounce your mighty being for all to be enthralled by to the extent that they care to embark on silence as you lay down your most righteous thoughts and opinions on their understanding of what exactly reality is, spreading courageous frequencies that enlighten the brains and thus the collective ∘ Your face is so beautiful
    Life is so easy for you as you change into the healthiest most gloriest version and vision of yourself • becoming and thus being that which is your heart’s dream come true. The people remember you as you inscribe the history of your glory upon the tablets of success
    You are a righteous champion of victory and success as you overcome the challenges before you and accomplish your dreams to become the GREATEST [insert your name] ✦

    Love coursing through

    you are powerfully articulate and gorgeous in the way you carry your heavy heart and massive energy that makes you so glorious ✦ you are so great and wise
    Wildly successful in your righteous ENDEAVOR TOWARDS GLORY
    Keep digging and find and attract immense health and success as your accomplishments bring the greatest glory to the light of your days as you carry forth and share the blessings of God who loves you so dearly ∘ Righteous earnings flowing to you with ultimate kindness as your wealth exponentializes into a fruitful ordeal making you
    an absolute gentle attraction magnet for ultimate amounts of beautiful loving wealth that empowers my being into safety, security, living, health and love

  • Always trying to learn something
    Making history with your wonderful
    vibrations that soar through the air
    with love ♡
    Recognize your efforts because they
    matter a great deal to those you love
    People will carry your name as a token
    of strength
    ⠄・ ⋆ ・ ⠄⠂⋆ ・ ⠄⠂⋆ ・ ⠄
    Lord Charizard (1/8/26)
    Special time in your history
    Show them what you’re made of
    Be so real and full of strength

  • thoughts about what’s going on in the world
    where does your mind go?
    You are so cute and funny
    incredible gratitude -> creating your progress
    What is the history of particular countries?
    Well, for now, my mission is to earn
    my goal number
    Can you stay focused on your dream
    diligently enough to see it realized
    as soon as possible?
    -> Become a *********** before today’s end

  • you are so beautiful & clever
    the ways in which you make
    today the best day ever, every
    single day, is historically remarkable
    your smile is so wonderful
    your eyes are so pretty
    We love your beautiful bluish/grey
    eyes and your lovely dark blond hair
    your strength is so strong with
    muscles so attractive
    your face is structured so well
    Beautiful loving soul, entity of
    love and light ∘ life glows
    so bright as you bring about
    goodness into the world and
    so impressive are your actions

    To find peace for yourself, what
    might we do? Smile, most certainly
    and to maintain a positive outlook
    and good attitude about things

  • February ’25

    listen more carefully (2/4/25)

    am wanting to be so much kinder & patient and loving to lady

    Is never wanting to lose my cool and only hold her so close all the time and be so kind and gentle and patient and loving and hold her so close in my heart even when she is not here and tell her through my soul that I love her with every drop of blood that my heart churns into my body that is hers forever.

    Thank God she was there

    I’ll be writing all the time and you’ll be getting the checks…

    I won’t forget

    Everything takes time

    Learning (Never fail her again) (2/4/25)

    Pray again!

    Never fail her again

    “And he was giving everything back, as everything must be given back, so that, passing through death, it can live forever.”

    4:44pm (2/9/25)

    I know how special this place is and I know how special a person I can be and I’m just happy to be a part of it ∘

    turns 67

    Redefine with new tools

    the Ultimate test ∘ Crystal ball

    ∘ Faster Start ∘ Stay Healthy

    ∘ Good & talented

    They’ll talk about this

    FOREVER

    Every single step -> everything you got ∘ For the person beside you

    Won (2/9/25)

    Debate ∘ Greatness ∘ What is GREATNESS? What does a GREAT [you] look & act like? ∘-> Embody your GREATEST SELF ∘ Put in the work every single year ∘ Continually winning. We know who we are ∘ We embrace who we are ∘ We Come together and take on the mission. Hard fought battle ∘ Earn Respect ∘ Give Respect

    Honesty & Natural Style (2/10/25)

    Zen – to stop thinking, temporarily -> even when you think

    (2/11/25)

    ∘ impiety 𓃊 a perceived lack of respect for something considered sacred. -> sacrilege -> large belief system disrespected -> exile

    Anaxagoras – introduced the concept of “Nous” (cosmic mind) as an ordering force -> Panspermia -> life exists throughout the universe and could be distributed everywhere -> also speculated that the sun might be just another star

    Gentle (2/12/25)

    Kindness is what I’d like to embody nowadays ♡

    Head Writer

  • Romemeusulus

  • (August 5, 2018)

    Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace

    First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence

    Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries

    Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be

    Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict

    (July 11, 2018)

    It’s interesting how we value some life over others.

    (July 18, 2018)

    Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.

    5:48 pm January 9th, 2018

    Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.

    12:24 pm January 19 2018

    “Philosophical thoughts“

    The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible. 

    “Pitt trip thoughts 1”

    Dec 30 2017 9:48 am

    Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am

    “Naps no more”

    Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am

    Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore

    12:45

    April 7th 2018  8:46am

    Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs. 

    “Morning thoughts“

    December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
    Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 am

    January 10, 2018

    Mormon experience

    Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people. 

    “Last day thoughts“

    9:48 am december 31st

    Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ?  Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07