Tag: identity

  • “September” (9/20/21)i

    Will you let Christ in today? Take the day one moment at a time, one second at a time. Construct yourself in a positive manner. In what form will you shape your body today? What are your cultural meanings? Will you seize the day? What level will you reach? Reach the top, become the top, be the heavens, accompany God.

    “September” (9/20/21)ii

    What is metaphysical substance? What does it mean to be powerful? Ego, individual, the person, substantial identity, Belief in language, Cause of thoughts

    Your being -•M•e•t•a•p•h•y•s•i•c•s𓏲-

    Sex/desire – it is difficult to take seriously Butler’s take on society being overly masculine • Defining the other • Restrictions – understand sex

    Desire – oppositional – unity 

    stable – conception – express

    naturalistic paradigm

    some true self – old dream 

    “September” (9/20/21)iii

    What are your desires telling you to do? Should you let other people decide your desires ∘ [Category of Sex] Sexuality ๋࣭ ˖𓏲˙• regulate 𓃋

    Critique ∘ identity ∘ scandal ∘ disorganized ∘ reaffirm ∘ terms ∘ distribute 

    • What is the argument? Performative

    What about sperm? World of Pleasures 

    Attributes • accidental 

    Exposes • postulation • regulatory • fiction •

    Abiding substances • Gender ontology

    Compulsory intelligibility 

    Core ∘ Produced • Culturally established 

    Deregulated • Subordinate • dissonatE

    Expand • Possibilities • coherences  

    “•Sept•ember•” (9/20/21)iv

    •N•☉•U•N•]Nietzsche’s claim in the Genealogy of Morals : “there is no being behind doing, affecting, becoming; the doer is merely a fiction, added to the deed, the deed is everything.” the deed is everything – Nietzshe 

    Radical theory • agency • humanism 

    Performative construction within material practice of culture 

    Law • Pre social • integrity • monotheistic 

    Culturally universal • subversive sexuality

    Constant challenge • temporality 

    Prohibitions ∘ produced • access to sexuality that is outside, before, or after power itself • Power encompasses both the jurisdictional, prohibitive, and regulatory

    “September” (9/20/21)v

    and the productive, inadvertently, regenerative functions of differential relations 

    Matrix of Power relations

    Uniform repetition of masculist economy of identity – swerve away 

    Exceed, expand what is culturally intelligible – Freed from constructs

    Sexuality ∘ Pleasure • Fallic • Se𓃌 

    Return to biology • defeated 

    Destiny • strategic • biological 

    essentialism • Understand sexuality 

    Male identified • Constructed • outside of 

    culture • use of such notions • terms 

    Construction • Discourse • Power • fallic

    • Determined • Masculine • Reductive 

    Political undue of cultural construction 

    “September” (9/20/21)vi

    Feminist sexuality • postulation 

    Cultural impossibility • rethinking 

    Sexuality, identity, power, matrix 

    MALE • Replay • Redistribute 

    Powerfield of sexuality • Phantasmic

    • Radical repudiation • construction 

    Forms of repetition • constitute a 

    Simple imitation, reproduction and 

    Consolidation of the law 

    identification 

    Various emergent 

    Govern gender life 

    Power dynamics in sexuality 

    Simple • augmentation 

    Heterosexist, falligacentric 

    Power regime 

    “September” (9/20/21)vii

    Exist ∘ Mobilize • redescribed • disjunctive 

    Masculine/Feminine/unity of gender

    Uniform • Compulsory • relative meanings 

    Unity of gender • render • compulsory 

    Produce • Suppress, subversive, convergence

    logic, metaphysic, repetition • cultural 

    reproduction of identity, ∘person∘

    escape matrix of power ∘ culturally 

    Constructed character

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    “One is not born, but becomes a woman.” 

    -Beuvoir – ‘Woman’ itself is a term 

    in process, a becoming, a construct

    ing, that cannot rightfully be said to 

    originate or end – ongoing, discursive practice

    it is open to intervention & resignification 

    congealing itself & insidious 

    “September” (9/20/21)viii

    Sustained and regulated by various 

    social means – Gender is continual 

    Stylization of the body 

    rigid regulatory frame -natural 

    Gender ontology – constitute acts 

    Compulsory frames • appearance 

    burden • gendered • admits possibilities 

    Regulatory fictions 

    Heterosexist / masculine oppression 

    identity signification 

    illusions of identity 

    No one cares to 

    talk about it?

    “September” (9/20/21)ix

    “Infected be the air whereon they ride.” 

    Ghost • Significance • Magic • Trash • odor 

    Typical • fearless • Sent by God 

    • Tarquin – the Rape of Lucrece 

    • Growth of the serpent 

    • Fearless – hoped – wrestles • demise

    extra-sensory perception • haunted 

    place • blood • smoke • infection 

    Scents • space • depicted • play

    ruby upon the cheeks

    “September” (9/20/21)x

    Basic terrors   –Aliens -people

    believe aliens exist – UFO – pics

    Movie Aliens • egotistical attitude

    if you think we’re the only ones

    • Planet X – spooky – spook city

    Invasion will be launched! 

    Invaders – hands, eyes

    “The thing” – Martian invaders 

    Dude was freaking about about the 

    thing • Two stunt doubles – what 

    is 

    being from another world as 

    opposite to us as one pole to another 

    if only we could communicate with 

    it. IT! From Space – intelligent 

    creature – open the door 

    “ ⚔A⋆。l˚ i☁︎ ˚。e⋆。˚n⋆🖇☽˚。⋆.𖥔 ݁ ˖” (9/20/21)xi

    in space, no one can hear you 

    scream. Build your core – 

    Be unstoppable “thing” remake

    came from outer space – 3rd dimension 

    Strange surgical experiments 

    This earth of yours – burned

    down cinder – “The Devil Girl

    from Mars”, Talking forever 

    Make sure they’re watching you 

    Flying saucers, little green monsters 

    Bullet in the arm – completely 

    Healed – get drunk or quit?

    Jawline – robe – suit – Washington

    Meeting • Judge • impatient with 

    Stupidity – my people have learned 

    to live without it – My people haven’t 

    “September” (9/20/21)xii

    Wild symphonic music – scary ominous – Quick cuts to build suspense • news gets out • protect your kids! Walter Reed Hospital Urge all citizens to be on alert No effort to minimize osiris Remain Calm • Man’s face NO ordinary man – powers beyond • our world’s own understanding – help you look for the spaceman. Quiet as a mouse – long way from home – mile away 

    “And now on this sunday morning we ask some questions that have been haunting the entire nation

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    “September” (9/20/21)xiii

    Who is this creature? If it can build robots that can destroy our weaponry what else is it capable of? What other horrors could it release at will? The monster must be found. Must be tracked down like a wild animal • Must be destroyed •

    But where would such a creature hide? Would he disappear into the North Woods? Would he crawl into the sewers of some great city? 

    “Savant calls meeting to study space ship” Professor Barnhardt Invites World’s Science Leaders Grace danger – protect ourselves 

    Destroy it – retaliation • Government 

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    “September” (9/20/21)xiv

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    something otherwise he wouldn’t be here – trusts son with the f***ing Alien – though it does sort of seem like the Alien is just curious • different worlds • no wars 

    No foolin’, will yah? No foolin! Alien is touring D.C., learns about Abe Lincoln 

    “I am fearful when I see people substituting fear for reason.” 

    Inertia – property of matter by which it remains in uniform motion unless acted upon by external forces he’ll never get it that way

    “September” (9/20/21)xv⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

    Do give this to the professor 

    Day earth stood still 

    Gave audience sense of real reaction 

    to the alien invader – societies reaction 

    Give into hysteria 

    No sign of threat yet humans 

    prepare for war against a peaceful 

    flying saucer – Universality of the 

    theme – camera demonstrates to 

    audience that the human reaction 

    is curiosity and apprehension regardless

    of racial details -> overreaction 

    tension, mysterious, intentions 

    possibilities, clouded judgement

    American military isolation – came 

    Here to tell you the facts, not to provide

    “September” (9/20/21)    xvi 

    fuel for your irrational paranoia

    Alien “carpenter” [carp] wants 

    to be amongst the people and 

    see what he can learn directly 

    Alien acts nothing like a fugitive 

    as the hunt for him begins 

    merely going about the business

    about learning about humans 

    Juxtaposed – showing contrast 

    between the hysteria of the 

    radio broadcast with images of

    Alien looking ordinary and non

    threatening

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  • Resentment Toward Yourself

    Do you have resentment towards yourself? Are you unhappy with the quality of human you came into the world as? What’s so wrong? Does your brain hurt to think about…that part…and how it makes you feel to think about how other people feel about it? And so be it, but what is it truly? Is it dissatisfaction or envy? Hm why not both? What is it then? Envy formed out of dissatisfaction? Or vice versa? Hm. And what does that mean for the likes of those around you? Must they suffer at your suffering? What a drag. Is that why they’re called drag queens? They’re all dragging us down with their ultimate showcasing of dissatisfaction with their natural born bodies in embodying that of which does not physically appear when they enter the shower? This cannot be the case, can it? Are our identities based on envy? I don’t even mean envy, I mean a certain adherence to an image that has overtaken one’s mind. I think my relationships with both women and men alike have shaped my identity, and although it may be a world of my own making, is it not those around us that assist in shaping our own inner realms? To such a degree, I most certainly may have myself had an impact on the identities of those I’ve come into close contact with. Thus it comes across as a nearly inescapable circumstance that we as living organisms undergo in our fluctuations through our vibrational undertakings via living. Would it benefit anyone to remove oneself from the whole of it? It comes across as unlikely that a mass flux will suddenly seek such isolation, so one may likely find plenty of space to develop an identity beyond the immediate surface of every day interactions. The key at that point is embarking on the meditative mind, of which will be in conjecture with the idea of enlightenment, if that is what one so desires, otherwise, perhaps at least, they will find solace in emptying the mind of memories, at least temporarily depending on the individuals connection to such memories (and the value placed towards them).

    If this all sounds too weighty, then continue on the path of identity swapping. My estimate is that it may just be an element of societal normality, thus pivotal in the process of collective evolution, thus likely evolving the individual (albeit blips of resistance as keys enter their respective holes) to such an extent that may blow any idea of resentment (and ultimately rejection) of ones natural born physical state out of the spectrum of thought entirely. that is to say our evolution may propel us forward with such masterfulness that we won’t even notice the shift in attitudes that will occur collectively, of which will be a soft, gentle, yet massive wave of acceptance that will coarse over each and every one involved in that warping being. It may in fact be reminiscent of that individual who sought escape from identity sharing, that is to say that the whole will be like the one, and so separation will be simultaneously assumed while also never existing to a most comfortable extent. In trying to understand this moving forward, perhaps take a really long time to look at yourself in the mirror and try to think about as many other people than yourself as you can while you’re staring into your own eyes. Try not to get lost in the abyss on such an endeavor, although if you do, have fun!