Tag: politics

  • “September” (9/20/21)i

    Will you let Christ in today? Take the day one moment at a time, one second at a time. Construct yourself in a positive manner. In what form will you shape your body today? What are your cultural meanings? Will you seize the day? What level will you reach? Reach the top, become the top, be the heavens, accompany God.

    “September” (9/20/21)ii

    What is metaphysical substance? What does it mean to be powerful? Ego, individual, the person, substantial identity, Belief in language, Cause of thoughts

    Your being -•M•e•t•a•p•h•y•s•i•c•s𓏲-

    Sex/desire – it is difficult to take seriously Butler’s take on society being overly masculine • Defining the other • Restrictions – understand sex

    Desire – oppositional – unity 

    stable – conception – express

    naturalistic paradigm

    some true self – old dream 

    “September” (9/20/21)iii

    What are your desires telling you to do? Should you let other people decide your desires ∘ [Category of Sex] Sexuality ๋࣭ ˖𓏲˙• regulate 𓃋

    Critique ∘ identity ∘ scandal ∘ disorganized ∘ reaffirm ∘ terms ∘ distribute 

    • What is the argument? Performative

    What about sperm? World of Pleasures 

    Attributes • accidental 

    Exposes • postulation • regulatory • fiction •

    Abiding substances • Gender ontology

    Compulsory intelligibility 

    Core ∘ Produced • Culturally established 

    Deregulated • Subordinate • dissonatE

    Expand • Possibilities • coherences  

    “•Sept•ember•” (9/20/21)iv

    •N•☉•U•N•]Nietzsche’s claim in the Genealogy of Morals : “there is no being behind doing, affecting, becoming; the doer is merely a fiction, added to the deed, the deed is everything.” the deed is everything – Nietzshe 

    Radical theory • agency • humanism 

    Performative construction within material practice of culture 

    Law • Pre social • integrity • monotheistic 

    Culturally universal • subversive sexuality

    Constant challenge • temporality 

    Prohibitions ∘ produced • access to sexuality that is outside, before, or after power itself • Power encompasses both the jurisdictional, prohibitive, and regulatory

    “September” (9/20/21)v

    and the productive, inadvertently, regenerative functions of differential relations 

    Matrix of Power relations

    Uniform repetition of masculist economy of identity – swerve away 

    Exceed, expand what is culturally intelligible – Freed from constructs

    Sexuality ∘ Pleasure • Fallic • Se𓃌 

    Return to biology • defeated 

    Destiny • strategic • biological 

    essentialism • Understand sexuality 

    Male identified • Constructed • outside of 

    culture • use of such notions • terms 

    Construction • Discourse • Power • fallic

    • Determined • Masculine • Reductive 

    Political undue of cultural construction 

    “September” (9/20/21)vi

    Feminist sexuality • postulation 

    Cultural impossibility • rethinking 

    Sexuality, identity, power, matrix 

    MALE • Replay • Redistribute 

    Powerfield of sexuality • Phantasmic

    • Radical repudiation • construction 

    Forms of repetition • constitute a 

    Simple imitation, reproduction and 

    Consolidation of the law 

    identification 

    Various emergent 

    Govern gender life 

    Power dynamics in sexuality 

    Simple • augmentation 

    Heterosexist, falligacentric 

    Power regime 

    “September” (9/20/21)vii

    Exist ∘ Mobilize • redescribed • disjunctive 

    Masculine/Feminine/unity of gender

    Uniform • Compulsory • relative meanings 

    Unity of gender • render • compulsory 

    Produce • Suppress, subversive, convergence

    logic, metaphysic, repetition • cultural 

    reproduction of identity, ∘person∘

    escape matrix of power ∘ culturally 

    Constructed character

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    “One is not born, but becomes a woman.” 

    -Beuvoir – ‘Woman’ itself is a term 

    in process, a becoming, a construct

    ing, that cannot rightfully be said to 

    originate or end – ongoing, discursive practice

    it is open to intervention & resignification 

    congealing itself & insidious 

    “September” (9/20/21)viii

    Sustained and regulated by various 

    social means – Gender is continual 

    Stylization of the body 

    rigid regulatory frame -natural 

    Gender ontology – constitute acts 

    Compulsory frames • appearance 

    burden • gendered • admits possibilities 

    Regulatory fictions 

    Heterosexist / masculine oppression 

    identity signification 

    illusions of identity 

    No one cares to 

    talk about it?

    “September” (9/20/21)ix

    “Infected be the air whereon they ride.” 

    Ghost • Significance • Magic • Trash • odor 

    Typical • fearless • Sent by God 

    • Tarquin – the Rape of Lucrece 

    • Growth of the serpent 

    • Fearless – hoped – wrestles • demise

    extra-sensory perception • haunted 

    place • blood • smoke • infection 

    Scents • space • depicted • play

    ruby upon the cheeks

    “September” (9/20/21)x

    Basic terrors   –Aliens -people

    believe aliens exist – UFO – pics

    Movie Aliens • egotistical attitude

    if you think we’re the only ones

    • Planet X – spooky – spook city

    Invasion will be launched! 

    Invaders – hands, eyes

    “The thing” – Martian invaders 

    Dude was freaking about about the 

    thing • Two stunt doubles – what 

    is 

    being from another world as 

    opposite to us as one pole to another 

    if only we could communicate with 

    it. IT! From Space – intelligent 

    creature – open the door 

    “ ⚔A⋆。l˚ i☁︎ ˚。e⋆。˚n⋆🖇☽˚。⋆.𖥔 ݁ ˖” (9/20/21)xi

    in space, no one can hear you 

    scream. Build your core – 

    Be unstoppable “thing” remake

    came from outer space – 3rd dimension 

    Strange surgical experiments 

    This earth of yours – burned

    down cinder – “The Devil Girl

    from Mars”, Talking forever 

    Make sure they’re watching you 

    Flying saucers, little green monsters 

    Bullet in the arm – completely 

    Healed – get drunk or quit?

    Jawline – robe – suit – Washington

    Meeting • Judge • impatient with 

    Stupidity – my people have learned 

    to live without it – My people haven’t 

    “September” (9/20/21)xii

    Wild symphonic music – scary ominous – Quick cuts to build suspense • news gets out • protect your kids! Walter Reed Hospital Urge all citizens to be on alert No effort to minimize osiris Remain Calm • Man’s face NO ordinary man – powers beyond • our world’s own understanding – help you look for the spaceman. Quiet as a mouse – long way from home – mile away 

    “And now on this sunday morning we ask some questions that have been haunting the entire nation

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    “September” (9/20/21)xiii

    Who is this creature? If it can build robots that can destroy our weaponry what else is it capable of? What other horrors could it release at will? The monster must be found. Must be tracked down like a wild animal • Must be destroyed •

    But where would such a creature hide? Would he disappear into the North Woods? Would he crawl into the sewers of some great city? 

    “Savant calls meeting to study space ship” Professor Barnhardt Invites World’s Science Leaders Grace danger – protect ourselves 

    Destroy it – retaliation • Government 

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    “September” (9/20/21)xiv

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    something otherwise he wouldn’t be here – trusts son with the f***ing Alien – though it does sort of seem like the Alien is just curious • different worlds • no wars 

    No foolin’, will yah? No foolin! Alien is touring D.C., learns about Abe Lincoln 

    “I am fearful when I see people substituting fear for reason.” 

    Inertia – property of matter by which it remains in uniform motion unless acted upon by external forces he’ll never get it that way

    “September” (9/20/21)xv⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

    Do give this to the professor 

    Day earth stood still 

    Gave audience sense of real reaction 

    to the alien invader – societies reaction 

    Give into hysteria 

    No sign of threat yet humans 

    prepare for war against a peaceful 

    flying saucer – Universality of the 

    theme – camera demonstrates to 

    audience that the human reaction 

    is curiosity and apprehension regardless

    of racial details -> overreaction 

    tension, mysterious, intentions 

    possibilities, clouded judgement

    American military isolation – came 

    Here to tell you the facts, not to provide

    “September” (9/20/21)    xvi 

    fuel for your irrational paranoia

    Alien “carpenter” [carp] wants 

    to be amongst the people and 

    see what he can learn directly 

    Alien acts nothing like a fugitive 

    as the hunt for him begins 

    merely going about the business

    about learning about humans 

    Juxtaposed – showing contrast 

    between the hysteria of the 

    radio broadcast with images of

    Alien looking ordinary and non

    threatening

  • Trump wants to build a 250-foot-tall arch, dwarfing the Lincoln Memorial

  • Newsletter II (April 17, 2025)

    G’day, readers! Happy Thursday to ye all, and happier yet to the new day we get to embrace with love and glory. ❤ right then, to the daily news!

    Weather:

    Spring is still slowly creeping out of bed. Yesterday was wonky between a cold morning and hot afternoon (DMV area). I noticed communication handbooks totally disparage talking about the weather, but I must rebuke this sentiment. Some of my most amazing conversations started with talking about the weather.

    Sports:

    This Nico Iamaleava fellow has been crowding up the sports world given the preposterousness of his story. For those who don’t know, he is an American football player who allegedly wanted more money from his college of Tennessee, the Volunteers that is. Having watched this story (somewhat) closely, it seems unclear as to whether he wants $4mil or to play for a better team. Given the lack of regulation around colleges paying their players, it is a difficult idea to swallow that a 19 year old young person is so filled with pride that his original payment of $2.5mil was not enough. If you look at my Kofi page, I have a goal of $100,000, of which I have received (generously, gratefully) $10. I am 29.

    Politics:

    Kilmar Abrego Garcia is the name of the hour, and rightfully so. Having been wrongfully removed from our beautiful country by the Trump administration, he currently (we think) lives and breathes in an El Salvadorian gulag…sorry, prison. He has a family who lives in Maryland, and being from the DMV myself, I am thoroughly offended by the actions of the executive branch. For those who don’t know, the DMV (D.C., Maryland, Virginia) has a strong population of hard working immigrants, a lot of whom have roots in Central America. I have personally met, worked with and befriended hundreds, nay, thousands, nay, countless immigrants, their families and their children, ALL of whom are incredible humans that have done nothing but support the shaping of not only me as a damn proud American (with European roots stemming only just after the turn of the 20th century), but also our beautiful country. I do not have any idea what they will do with him. What I do know now is that we have authorities smiling and hammering at windows as they seek to pluck innocent people off the streets to be sent off to some torture chamber all because they were born different. An awful state of affairs, it is not unlike Russia, where waves of purges and assemblies of show trials by Stalin through the 1930s that lasted well into the 90s, and has found new fire under the likes of a more comfortable-in-power Vladimir Putin. If we are to prevent the deaths of millions, we must speak against the heinous nature of the people who believe in locking other people up without due process. The future of our families well beings depends on what we feel now, and what we feel now will propel us to a more unified, law/person respecting nation.

    Personal News:

    My pursuit of a bachelors degree is coming to a close. I have been in and out of college for the past 10 years, so being a super senior at 29 years old is an honor. I actually never wanted a degree, all I knew was that people told me I should revolve my life around getting one since middle school. Nothing about it made sense to me at the time, but after high school, I naturally fell into psychology. That lasted two semesters before I dropped out. Then, as time went on, I worked and thought about what I could do with my life. Then, I stumbled upon the novel “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho, and that inspired me to write my own stories. From there, I started writing like a mad dog, but quickly realized i had no idea what I was doing, so i started taking a creative writing class (at the community college i dropped out of) to improve my writing skills. Maybe it was my professors fault, but I was hooked and became an English Major, dedicating my life to the craft word smithing. It really is the only thing I know how to do (somewhat) competently, so is why i write this today!

    I won’t be graduating until either this winter or next spring, and even though that doesn’t seem like a lot of time left, it has been a long time coming. Part of me is sad that I didn’t finish sooner (i dropped out a couple times since the first drop out) but I hope my loved ones know it was out of love for myself that I did not succumb to some made up time table.

    Well, that’s it for today! Thanks for tuning in, and until Friday, enjoy your Thursday! ❤

  • In light of (quite a few) requests for daily postings, here is our first newsletter!

    Weather:

    This “spring” has been rather cold, but I have a feeling the May flowers are just yearning to flourish. Major winds yesterday almost blew me over (186 lbs), which felt random.

    Politics:

    Harvard did not give into demands placed on them by the federal government, leading to a halt in their funding. I find this to be exceptional of them, morally speaking. They went ahead and changed their website (https://www.harvard.edu/) cover page to include information about the different programs and inventions their students partake in to make the world a better place (example: working on mobility for stroke victims). I wish other organizations would follow in Harvard’s footsteps, though it seems clearer everyday that these companies would rather pay out millions to the Trump administration so that they may be in his good graces (i.e. NBC, law firms, facebook, apple, etc.). When he’s gone, what will they do? will they crawl back to silicon valley? or settle down in the bowels of texas until the next orange one emerges?

    Sports:

    What are sports? just kidding.

    Basketball: the warriors won last night. I don’t really like basketball as much as i used to. I would look to the Celtics head coach as a prime example of what went wrong for the NBA. another detestable factor is the players like Kevin Durant and Jimmy Butler who abuse teams and hop around the league. With that said, teams abuse the hell out of their players, so it’s like why even watch any of that defenseless mess anymore, yah know?

    [Also] – I am 95% sure that the NBA paid the Mavericks big bucks to get them to trade their white knight to the lake show. someone called the NBA “WWE” once, which makes more and more sense to me every day.

    Hockey: The Washington Capitals beat the Islanders last night. They are playing against the penguins tomorrow, should be a righteous matchup between the two of greatest players to ever cross the ice.

    Personal News:

    I quit intaking THC this week, which unironically lined up perfectly with 4/20. I have never actually celebrated 4/20, at least not since all my friends left my life, so I’m not hung up on missing out on the festivities. As it turns out, i was marijuana dependent to a great degree, as i am discovering via horrid withdrawal symptoms. It’s something I have to work through, but it feels worth it considering it has had such a negative impact on me from not smoking for just a few days. I also noticed nature more clearly (so pretty!), my short term memory is staggeringly better, I think and speak much more clearly, I’m more excited than ever to work on my creative endeavors, and even more excited to see what the future has in store for me! 🙂 i will miss weed very much, but it has been a solid 11 years of abusing myself with overt amounts of THC, so it’s definitely time for a change in my life.

    That’s all we got for now! feel free to comment requests for topics! I’ll gladly cover anything if it’s gnarly ❤

  • Book of Watts (cont.)

    “Righteous Wonderings” (2/27/24)

    Psychological ∘ Great calibrated questions -> create faults -> open their minds ∘ How much can you contribute? What happens if you don’t fill this role? How can I be most successful for you? How am I supposed to accept a salary that’s half what I’m worth? 

    “Forming a Team” (5/11/24)

    Supremely confident ∘ Extremely humble ∘  Star of the show

    (3/25/24)

    Confidence ∘  power ∘ strength from God ∘ Righteous ∘ Generous ∘ Peaceful ∘ Committed ∘ Enoch ∘ Ra ∘ you have the power to be the best Robert possible ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ be so fucking strong & humble -> humility will lead you to success ∘  Make yourself desirable ∘ Pray ∘ Show Gratitude ∘ Be Grateful, thankful ∘ Give Gifts ∘ listen ∘ What are your thoughts? How are they? ∘ Praise others ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Listen ∘ Hard work ∘ recognition ∘ listen to your inner good voice. 

    “Say what you think” (5/9/24)

    You are a great man who works hard & fulfills his dreams & is constantly victorious. Proud —> do what’s hard, not what’s fun -> the feeling of victory. Escape the impulse mindset -> stop chasing fun. Be elite of the elite ∘ Positive

    Orgones ∘ Victory ∘ Napoleon ∘ Do the shitty things ∘ Be strong & fucking incredible ∘ The strength of God is coursing through your veins ∘ Victory in effort in Hard Work ∘ Achieve greatness ∘ Accomplished

    “Resist their enslavement” (5/11/24)

    Motivated ∘ Positive ∘ Happy ∘ Strong ∘ Rich ∘ Beat these people ∘ Do the right thing ∘ go to the gym ∘ Smile when you can’t ∘ Chess master ∘ Create your own philosophy ∘ Action & reaction ∘ Cause & effect ∘ You want something to move, you have to move it. Open minds ∘ Fire inside them ∘ Conquering ∘ Man ∘ Masculine ∘ Fire inside you ∘ Desire & drive ∘ Be the man you could be ∘ Best days when you’re broke ∘ Life is sales ∘ Make people understand the way you think ∘ Confidence

    “the beauty is in the journey” (5/11/24)

    Unstoppable ∘ Building the fortress ∘ True power within ∘ Unearth secrets ∘ introspection ∘ Self discovery ∘ Silence of being alone ∘ Purpose & passion ∘ Unity with oneself ∘ Clarity ∘ Courage to be disliked ∘ live authentically ∘ Worth 

    Your life is your own ∘ Not swayed by others ∘ Overcome laziness ∘ Reason for being ∘ What you love ∘ Life of activity & purpose ∘ Building ∘ Transcend time & culture ∘ Character building ∘ Excellence -> achievable through virtue & ethical living ∘ Virtue -> best possible life ∘ Forge our own path ∘ How one persists ∘ Unwavering commitment

    “Strength, Struggle, Will (“Amor Fati” love of one’s fate)” (5/11/24)

    Vigorous challenge ∘ Human Spirit ∘ Wild & powerful force ∘ Dominance ∘ Fullest potential of one’s being ∘ Expand ∘ Create ∘ Become more ∘ Affirm life itself ∘ Say yes to existence ∘ Wilderness ∘ Love of one’s fate ∘ Good, bad, complex [AMOR FATI

    Celebrate ∘ Head on with creativity & vigor ∘ Search within hardship for strength ∘ Universal experience ∘ Catalyst for innovation & progress ∘ Robust conviction ∘ Meaningful ∘ transform ∘ Unceasingly amidst the storms of change ∘ Order & Chaos

    “Withstand & Welcome” (5/11/24)

    Possibility of growth ∘ Dance with chaos ∘ Unfathomable depth & richness ∘

    Liberation

    Care ∘ Respect ∘ Honor

    What did you see 

    What did you go through 

    What did you learn

    “Echosmith “Cool Kids”(2014)(Apple Music)”(5/14/24)

    I wish that I could be like the 

    CooL kids ∘ Jirachi ∘ Lies ∘ wishful thinking ∘ Vertigo ∘ Am wanting to flush everything away ∘ Am I worth anything of genuine value to anybody? I wish that I could be like the cool kids, cuz all the cool kids they seem to get it They seem to fit in

    Wanting waiting creating

    Stronger being ultimate

    strength and guiding force

    Supportive & loving & attractive 

    & you are the strongest 

    Coalition ∘ Create ∘ The great

    “Birthday presents∘” (5/14/24)

    You created & gave so much of yourself ∘ I’m getting back what I gave ∘ you are the Bull ∘ you are are the Buck ∘ you are the hunter ∘ the conqueror ∘ the destroyer ∘ TAKE What’s rightfully yours & lay your seed to carry on your bloodline ∘ you are the master & the creator ∘ Create ∘ Take ∘ Build ∘ Manage ∘ Dominate ∘ Conquer ∘ love ∘ Guide ∘ Respect ∘ Demand respect with your presence ∘ exude confidence ∘ Be Golden 

    “The Golden Child” (5/14/24)

    ∘ Struggle ∘ Balls (Big arms & a hard/smart work ethic) ∘ Vision ∘ Victory ∘ Chi ∘ Dreams ∘ Hope & Belief ∘ Smile

    “The flowers & the Clouds” (5/28/24)

    Grow into what you want to become 

    how to treat her right

    “Overflowing Confidence” (5/29-6/1/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything goes fucking perfect & the things out of your control are working out for you. Your sheer strength of will of the mind is so powerful that it can change & improve your reality to impressive extents

    (6/2/24)

    Play ∘ Goodness over evil ∘

    You are so powerful 

    grateful

    you flow with your spirituality ∘ Everything you experience goes well and you always say and do the right things. You create and attract miracles.✧

    “1% in that state for a year” (6/3/24)

    What would life be like in that state? What do you like about being in that state? Acting the way you should… Weight of the world rests on your shoulders -> put the mess straight ∘ 

    Grey Man

    ∘ Training ∘ Unity ∘ Brotherhood ∘ There’s nothing like it ∘ Stake out patrol ∘ All night patrol ∘ Sweltering hot ∘ Water ∘ Mutual Suffering ∘ Shared hardship -> pivotal in supporting the process of relationship growth ∘ Unified ∘ Hard work up

    Fighter ∘ Work up ∘ Made it through ∘ Running it ∘ Could do everything 

    “True Meritocracy” (6/3/24)

    ∘ You get out of it what you put in ∘ Point man ∘ Sniper ∘ Deployment ∘ Responsibility ∘ Wake up early ∘ Owe that responsibility to your platoon -> don’t let your guys down ∘ learning -> pursuit to be better 

    Promise to be better

    “Journalism (Generate)” (6/4/24)

    ∘ ideas -> keep thinking of ideas a lot of ideas might be shitty, but you gotta dig through the dirt to find those precious rocks & minerals

    (6/6/24)

    What can we do different?

    “Everlong” (6/8/24)

    I’ve waited here for you

    Vape Smoke

    Beautiful Reckonings 

    Fuckin’ so smart 

    Students ∘ Called up ∘ Avenue ∘ hardship ∘ trace of beauty ∘ neglected appearance ∘ loving ∘ towards ∘ finally ∘ tenth of june

    “Do you have any idea?” (6/10/24)

    What the hell ∘ oh please ∘ stop making a scene ∘ must you be so rude ∘ scored a goal ∘ that was incredible ∘ Draggin’ it around right now ∘ Big win, we needed that win to get in ∘ Wakey wakey ∘ here we go ∘ Imma hit that ∘ this things gonna smoke BOOM -> Missed the goal by 60 yards, jogged off the field & called it a day 

    Experience

    “Robotics” (6/13/24)

    Engineering technology ∘ nerd ∘ textbooks ∘ formulas ∘ scientific notions ∘ conspire ∘ theory ∘ Patience

    “Bum Bum Bum tss” (6/15/24)

    Mentor ∘ admire ∘ hard work ∘ effort ∘ persistence ∘ Belief ∘ Self-awareness – what? What is it you/I must do to achieve your/mine goal(s)?

    “Bring forth life” (6/14/24)

    with light from your righteous, gentle hands

    “Beautiful loving glorious (Propitious Day)” (6/16/24)

    the words of our Fathers ∘ Picked the right day ∘ Golden Age

    “We look forward to getting you back” (6/20-22/2024)

    Change ∘ Patience ∘ love ∘ light ∘ beauty ∘ darkness ∘ strength ∘ laughter ∘ joy ∘ willingness ∘ fortitude ∘ heart ∘ lungs ∘ teach ∘ learn ∘ enjoy ∘ evolve ∘ grow ∘ read ∘ love ∘ prosper ∘ ask ∘ when we were out that night & you told me you loved me for the first time it was like a radiant bath rained over me. Time & time again Why do we do these things to o 

    “Human Imagination” (6/22/24)

    What challenges your imagination? 

    “Righteous Reckonings” (6/20/24)

    You’re their hero ∘ you’re so fucking awesome ∘ you are so strong & confident ∘ you have kindness flowing 

    We just are & what happens just happens I remember everything. She writes to me 

    I wouldn’t hang up

    “Communicate” (6/17/24) 

    Making decisions ∘ Speaking ∘ Commander ∘ Cognitive capacity duty

    “flow with the wind” (6/18/24)

    use time or lose time

    “Revelation” (6/19/24)

    Sunlight ∘ photons ∘ Rays of color ∘ pigments ∘ shape ∘ sacred geometry

    “Curious forms of love” (6/23/24)

    Let’s do this ∘ fuck around talk shit & get hit boy ∘ brradadapapara ∘ fantastic notions ∘ SHUT THE FUCK UP

    (6/24/24)

    18 198 2 200 

       65 2 

       2

    “What is your claim to fame?” (6/24/24)

    Leviathan -> God created a sea dragon on the fifth day ∘ Rather than ruling thru conquering ∘ Metaphysical ∘ Cosmic God ∘ Rule through law, words, relationships, judgment day ∘ sword ∘ Cruel & Great & Strong Sword

    Ancient belief ∘ Mythical animal until the day I…

    Eyes ∘ Teeth ∘ Blood

    “Robert” (6/26/24)

    i do love you 

    “ten thousand days in the

    fire is long enough 

    you’re going home” – tool ∘

    Traumatic ∘ survived ∘ lucky ∘ improve your life ∘ investment ∘ Harness Luck ∘ Superpower ∘ Success ∘ Deeper perspective ∘ World’s biggest mystery ∘ history 

    Through the ages ∘ imagination ∘ luck

    “What’s in your closet?” (6/27/24)

    The skeleton’s of sorts ∘ scout ∘ Acquire ∘ who wrote this? Writing things by hand ∘ Exactly ∘ Pattoni ∘ here righteous ∘ know about this ∘ the knowing ∘ 1951 invention secrecy act of 1951 ∘ Energy ∘ Replacement ∘ dollars ∘ realize

    “Nothing like anyone’s seen before” (6/29/24)

    Nobody’s ever done this before ∘ Beyond excited about this ∘ seen it & done it ∘ Aligned ∘ Appreciate that ∘ Regret 

    “Cloudy day, slight rain” (6/30/24)

    Because you move me ∘ baby won’t you ∘ move me from this tower

    “Universe” (6/30/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything always goes right for you

    thoughts ∘ emotions ∘ energy 

    Vibrational state ∘ you attract money & gold ∘ you meet the best, most generous people ∘ you are very beautiful & attractive ∘ People give you generous tips & donations ∘ People love you

    “Meeting in your eyes” (7/1/24)

    Sound Lights Silence Dark

    FADES ∘ Go Back 

    More than a memory 

    gave you a part of my 

    soul to keep forever 

    Poetry ∘ Skoldic -> scaldic 

    Not common ∘ Best of the best

    Elite of society 

    Signature

    “long term effects” (7/1-2/24)

    healing – the long road of healing feels good nonetheless ∘ We’re in love

    Tree of Knowledge 

    “Labor Party/Government vs. Conservatives” (7/3/24)

    Everything goes right for you

    Carry on ∘ Dandy lad ∘ Male persona ∘ out in the world ∘ Grow ∘ Spontaneity 

    Money ∘ Aristotle ∘ Top Earner ⸻

    “Cultural Zone” (7/4/24)

    Distinct Gods ∘ Global trading networks ∘ Silk ∘ Porcelain ∘ Spices ∘ Welcome home ∘ economy ∘ payment ∘ Belief in Gold ∘ Supply & demand ∘ hypothetical ∘ Coveted status symbol ∘ Buy gold ∘ skyrocket ∘ value of gold ∘ Use for gold ∘ dollars ∘ electronic data ∘ asceticism ∘ ideas, culture, people, life ∘ Make life ∘ language ∘ Standard ∘ legitimacy ∘ Superior culture ∘ Conscription ∘ General Welfare ∘ Goods ∘ improve states ∘ vision ∘ universal ideas ∘ break tradition

    “Guitar” (7/4/24)

    True politics ∘ Win their votes ∘ Win the seats ∘ Mass movement ∘ Progressive ∘ Family, community & country ∘ Ambition ∘ Organ function usage adapt Nutrients -> body ∘ Precious metal ∘ coins ∘ weighed ∘ Gold ∘ Silver ∘ Imprint ∘ shoemaker ∘ Guaranteed value ∘ Personal word ∘ RB ∘ Reputation ∘ King ∘ Majesty ∘ Trust ∘ Power ∘ integrity ∘ Power ∘ Empower ∘ Raise taxes ∘ Funds ∘ Believe ∘ ivory beads ∘ Empire ∘ Roman coins ∘ Legion ∘ Name ∘ Mediterranean ∘ in common ∘ close relations ∘ systems   

    “I thought it sounded familiar” (7/5/24)

    ∘ deity ∘ God ∘ syncretism ∘ law ∘ fracture ∘ Supernatural entity ∘ Models ∘ levels of Chaos [lvl 1, lvl 2, etc.] ∘ forecast ∘ materialize 

    “Pluto” (7/8/24)

    ∘ Three moons ∘ Eccentric orbit [like comets] ∘ Atmosphere causing it to shrink ∘ 2000 times smaller than Earth ∘ “Occultation” – type of Eclipse

    “Mycobacterium Tuberculosis” (7/9/24)

    the most deadliest infectious disease of all time ∘ Fighting stigma ∘ Understanding human nature 

    “Generate Positive Orgones ⃤◌” (7/9/24)

    What made you want to go to college? Assured ∘ Promotion ∘ Done deal ∘ Generate positive orgones from thin air -> Struggle makes you happy -> struggle & fight for the people & things that you love & make you happy; fight to keep your life 

    “Articulate” (7/12/24)

    Astute ∘ Pertinent ∘ impressive ∘ Perspicacious

    “You Got This ★” (7/16/24)

    now i want you 

    & you want me

    so come near 

    you’ve got me hooked,

    “Routine ∘ Absolutely ∘ Tea Meditation” (7/17/24)

    Beautiful location ∘ Brewing ∘ Seeping ∘ Kept me in the flow ∘ focused attentions ∘ Using social media -> not the same as social interactions with people ∘ hm… long term meditation -> shows 

    I don’t want to be anxious like this – Something has to change

    “if i had to guess” (7/18/24)

    meditation is the only cure at this point, so go meditate. 

    “Dance with the feminine” (7/21/24)

    Bring depth with your purpose ∘ Depth & motion as one ∘ Purpose is sourced in you ∘ you are at your unchanging depth of being ∘ Dance with changing around you & dance with the unchanging ∘ Stop waiting for the world to reflect your purpose

    “Stop being lazy” (7/24/24)

    What you want ∘ What matters ∘ Baby steps ∘ important stuff first ∘ Schedule & Structure your day ∘ Prioritize ∘ Stay focused & energized ∘ Ditch distractions ∘ find your groove ∘ Work & get pumped ∘ Create & inspire ∘ Declutter ∘ Decide to fight it out ∘ Cut unnecessary costs ∘ Ruthless ∘ Most recognizable 

    “Customer Orientation” (7/24/24)

    ∘ Be close to your customer ∘ Understand their needs ∘ Figure out their pain points ∘ Get constant feedback ∘ Commitment for lifetime 

    “Adaptability” (7/24/24)

    What really sets you apart from the rest is 

    flexibility

    willingness & ability to adapt to what is happening around him/her. Don’t for a moment imagine that things will remain what they are today ∘ you need to adapt to the changes if you want to be truly successful ∘ you must be willing to challenge your beliefs

    “GREATNESS” (7/24/24)

    Family-> have concern & empathy for your team. You should feel like a family. 

    Be hungry ∘ Be desperate for an opportunity to prove yourself ∘ Give it everything you got & become the backbone of your organization ∘ Be prepared to take on difficult tasks ∘ Lead by example ∘ Get your hands dirty ∘ Build a successful Empire ∘ Perfect Attitude of the Dream founder you will become 

    “Good Vibes, Good Life” (7/24/24)

    Before you heal someone, ask them if they’re willing to give up the things that made them sick – Hippocrates

    Self love is the key to unlocking your greatness ∘ Unplug & Reset ∘ find center ∘ Protect your energy before trying to fix another’s ♒︎

    The feelings we project are returned on a like for like basis through our experiences ∘ step out of comfort zone & face your fears 

    Challenge = Growth

    Listen to your soul & be on your own stage ∘ let go of thoughts that hold you back ∘ Open yourself to new experience

    “Mindful & aware of who you allow in your life & heart ♡” (7/24/24)

    Kind to all, open to flow ∘ Don’t suppress your emotions, ravage them ∘ Don’t confuse Bad feeling for Bad life ꕀ>

    Do the Work ∘

    Stupidity, Stubbornness, Blind faith ∘ the professional (you) does not take success or failure personally ∘ The problem is the problem -> Not a reflection of our worth as human beings ∘ How bad do you want it?

    “Momentum” (7/24/24)

    Don’t prepare, begin. 

    Totally Committed

    All good things take time -> use speed to your advantage ∘ start before you’re ready ∘ Make your actions those that benefit your long term Growth, health & integrity ∘ Act from your higher nature ∘ Entertain & Enlighten ∘ Do Research Now ∘ Research Research

     Research Research !

    Great job of disguising 

    7/25/24

    RB

    “Shakespeare”

    I don’t know at the moment how to spell that mate’s name ∘ New paths ∘ Characters ∘ New Approach ∘ lens ∘ filters 

    RB 

    it’s about right 

    It’s like they

    understand 

    “instill discipline” (7/31/24)

    Steps we’re taking ∘ internally 

    “R&D(Research & Development)” (8/1/24)

    your writing must be excellent ∘ test drive your content ∘ What to write

    “Be a fucking” (8/2/24)

    Champion

    “yes, you read that right.” (8/3/24)

    Today is August third. Get over it. And be so Righteous

    (8/4/24)

    Courage is a rare virtue

    “A Rare day” (8/7/24)

    Where I don’t put the cross through a seven 

    realities identified ∘ hope ∘ struggle ∘ battle ∘ Effort ∘ Something to fight for ∘ Articulate ∘ Imagination ∘ Transcendental ∘ Shocking ∘ Mind ∘ You have a very strong brain ∘ Fight through the pain ꕀ> Earn a lot of money & a lot of cash ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ 

    “Ride your momentum wave” (8/11/24)

    Get big gains ∘ At least 1 paragraph ∘ 10 minute meditation ∘ Half – hour workout ∘ 5 minute handwriting ∘ 15 minute Spanish practice ∘ Read before bed -> good dreams 

    “OBX” (8/13/24)

    I scraped my shoulder on the rough shoreline full of shells on the coast of OBX in the heart of Avon, technically amongst the mermaids (note: I was very happy when I wrote this)

    “highly astute & pertinent” (8/14/24)

    driving days ∘ 

    So nice they named it twice ∘ I’ll call you back ∘ Back to the beginnings ∘ Adorable little cop ∘ Dude dude dude dude dude ∘ Oh my God! I saw brains & blood! I just saw some crazy shit man! Let me in!

    “Right before we go ౨ৎ” (8/15/24)

    Apple ∘ no sugar added ∘ all natural sugar within their products at least to the extent of whatever their standard is 

    “Before writing the date”

    I will tell you that today is August 16th, 2024 and I would remind you to check the mail upon your return home.♡

    ☪︎ ִ ֶ֢࣪⋆༻𖤓༺ˎˊ-༄.°࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

  • Resentment Toward Yourself

    Do you have resentment towards yourself? Are you unhappy with the quality of human you came into the world as? What’s so wrong? Does your brain hurt to think about…that part…and how it makes you feel to think about how other people feel about it? And so be it, but what is it truly? Is it dissatisfaction or envy? Hm why not both? What is it then? Envy formed out of dissatisfaction? Or vice versa? Hm. And what does that mean for the likes of those around you? Must they suffer at your suffering? What a drag. Is that why they’re called drag queens? They’re all dragging us down with their ultimate showcasing of dissatisfaction with their natural born bodies in embodying that of which does not physically appear when they enter the shower? This cannot be the case, can it? Are our identities based on envy? I don’t even mean envy, I mean a certain adherence to an image that has overtaken one’s mind. I think my relationships with both women and men alike have shaped my identity, and although it may be a world of my own making, is it not those around us that assist in shaping our own inner realms? To such a degree, I most certainly may have myself had an impact on the identities of those I’ve come into close contact with. Thus it comes across as a nearly inescapable circumstance that we as living organisms undergo in our fluctuations through our vibrational undertakings via living. Would it benefit anyone to remove oneself from the whole of it? It comes across as unlikely that a mass flux will suddenly seek such isolation, so one may likely find plenty of space to develop an identity beyond the immediate surface of every day interactions. The key at that point is embarking on the meditative mind, of which will be in conjecture with the idea of enlightenment, if that is what one so desires, otherwise, perhaps at least, they will find solace in emptying the mind of memories, at least temporarily depending on the individuals connection to such memories (and the value placed towards them).

    If this all sounds too weighty, then continue on the path of identity swapping. My estimate is that it may just be an element of societal normality, thus pivotal in the process of collective evolution, thus likely evolving the individual (albeit blips of resistance as keys enter their respective holes) to such an extent that may blow any idea of resentment (and ultimately rejection) of ones natural born physical state out of the spectrum of thought entirely. that is to say our evolution may propel us forward with such masterfulness that we won’t even notice the shift in attitudes that will occur collectively, of which will be a soft, gentle, yet massive wave of acceptance that will coarse over each and every one involved in that warping being. It may in fact be reminiscent of that individual who sought escape from identity sharing, that is to say that the whole will be like the one, and so separation will be simultaneously assumed while also never existing to a most comfortable extent. In trying to understand this moving forward, perhaps take a really long time to look at yourself in the mirror and try to think about as many other people than yourself as you can while you’re staring into your own eyes. Try not to get lost in the abyss on such an endeavor, although if you do, have fun!

  • (Feel free to read)

    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – March

    March 15, 2015

    “The man of virtue makes the overcoming of challenges his first business, and success only a second consideration.” – Confucius

    March 16, 2015

    Life Guard

    -Safety Consciousness

    -Follow Rules

    -Cleanliness

    -Everything must be clean

    -Strive for ZERO complaints

    -Punctuality

    -Arrive on time

    • Mandatory Employee Meeting

    •Middle of May at pool

    •Teaching how to handle the pool

    •Uniform required (paid for by me)

    •Work scheduled hours

    •Solely responsible to find sub

    March 17, 2015

    •Double speak will no longer exist

    “It is the manners and spirit of a people which preserve a republic in vigor.” – Thomas Jefferson, Notes on the State of Virginia, Query XIX

    •Stay civilized – violence cannot be the answer

    Malcom X – Speak the language they speak in order for them to understand. The same language had been being spoken the whole time. It is was is perceived, what is seen that will change the outlook of those who have a hard time seeing clearly “They know not what they do” and neither do we if we partake in their language. Start your own language and new ideas will rise with it.

    •Leadership – things cannot be started w/o a 2nd party

    -Give and take from your followers as there will always be new ideas that will benefit the cause for the better

    -Stay virtuous – “Stay true and ravage, family.”

    March 19, 2015

    *Positive/Negative reinforcement is more affective than punishment

    March 24, 2015

    The world has too man ********* ****** ****** to ***** ****** ** **** *** ** ****, at least this *****. I’m gonna get **** ****, yo.

    What should I be? Movie idea: K*** *** **********.

    So *** gets *** by a car or something (but it’s actually two ***** **** fans who had wanted *** ** *** but didn’t mean to **** ***) and then she is immortalized in a Marilyn Monroe esq fashion and ***** doesn’t have to pretend like he needs a family anymore and he starts taking care of his baby or the best thing for that baby which is drop her off at the doorstep of an orphanage where she’ll head a normal life GET HER OUT NOW ***** I KNOW YOU SEE THE ENTIRE DIFFICULT TRUTH WITHIN YOURSELF YOU ARE THE PROPHET YOU WILL FIND THE LIGHT ONCE AGAIN!

    I’ve found that you really gotta figure out your personal problems and fix em up before you try to pursue anything else in life. I think my biggest problem right now is that I’m limiting myself w/ a ********* but that’s for reasons difficult to understand, especially to the average bear. Call me yogi instead of pooh LMAO I’m a fuck up on a lot of levels but I love ***** they’re so fantastic. I simply can’t wait to be free. You can say I don’t want my ********* anymore with some very solid evidence, but I’ve found showing restraint for something can benefit both parties for the better so why not show some nonchalant behavior for a change. Make this separation of power a little less heavy on the soul. First things first – delete twitter, instagram, facebook, and any other distractions from my life. Learn. Lift. Make money. Three things I sense will bring future happiness. I sacrificed my freshmen year to give this **** a **** to remember. I can do whatever the fuck I want. I have found that honest is dead concept, like Latin. It seems I tend to lack in interest in anything that lacks interest in me. But it is the ones who find substance in things that don’t even care that that someone exists will be most successful once they understand that. There’ll be those who will sacrifice themselves to a careless cause in search of acceptance because acceptance feels good. But that’s wrong. You must absorb as you sacrifice and through this action you will find self-acceptance. Do not sacrifice to gain for others, but in a charitable act where you have enough to sacrifice for someone else.

    March 29, 2015

    No one needs to die ever. Just because certain beliefs obstruct honest points of view, doesn’t mean they need to die.

    1. don’t put them in power
    2. vote you lazy shits
    3. ignore them! People will stop preaching once you stop listening
    4. Voice your own thoughts!
    5. Do not kill anyone! That is not such a good thing to do!

    No need to be lazy except for when stress is abundant. In which case, lay around, take a nap, play a game or something

    There are so many beautiful people in this world. How can I restrain myself from experiencing ** ***** **** ** ****? How can I ***** just one being and limit my all out **** to just one? How can I bare children when there are plenty in this world to adopt? Would I become the ghost of my past once I reach parenthood?

    How something so perfect could be so cluttered in this absurd fakeness. There so much perfection within yet you see others and their acts and you believe that’s who you need to be but it’s not you’re the sun you need not worry about those specs of dust but with that I must retreat to the lust I need from ****/***** ****(*) who are so ***. I won’t hold you back on your gilded journey you fucking fiend go **** your ***** **** **** wearing your **** ******* talking about how fun shitty music is and keep making fun of who I AM I’m so real that it’ll blind you **** ***** ******* ******* I’ll show you and the rest of you spoiled fucks I will stay true and RAVAGE

    STAY TRUE AND RAVAGE

    3/30/15

    Cause if not, I’m a failure.