Tag: random

  • Running out of

  • Optimal Solution (4/1/25)

    Mathematical ecologist

    Harvesting ∘ Environment

    Social interaction ∘ water ∘ information

    Animal behaviors ∘ computations

    Voice of… (4/2/25)

    (4/3/25)

    Appreciating life before the grave.

    Supposed to be hot & rainy this weekend

    Not sure what

    What we go through (4/5/25)

    We’re out of our fucking minds ∘ money making vehicle

    High occupancy Who the hell do you think you are?

    You know what’s hilarious

    You are or you aren’t

    What are you sad about?

    Over the horizon

    Jesus Christ

    Crazy Elf

    Learned a lot of things in life

    Building everything from the ground (4/5/25)

    level ∘ Doing something about it •

    Starting from a better place

    What is your level of independence?

    Force to reckoned with

    Folks like you don’t come around often

    Still working ∘ support ∘ go a long way ∘

    ∘

    improving brain functions

    ∘

    Ringing, gorgeous beauty

    ∘

    Legacy ∘ Billionaires

    Foreign leaders ∘ Controlling the World

    People who get this will understand

    Learning about who you are

    Desperate wealth • Individual basis

    There is a Winner (4/5/25)

    What can we expect to see? Show up • $40 million • One hundred million dollars • Business Working women & men ∘ Creates the system ∘ What do you believe?

    The body learns

    the will to live is an interesting thing.

    Is anything possible to anyone?

    Challenges ∘ Neural ∘ dopamine circuitry

    Embrace new learning, new challenges

    Renovation • Unexpected • Preparation

    Imagine a great place

    Mindful Hospital

    Stress is by far the biggest killer

    Measure their stress levels -> will give us answers about our health

    You don’t get burnout if you’re mindful (4/5/25)

    It can be exhausting if you’re not getting anything • we need a mindful checklist • Fruits and vegetables (I feel like we need a new word for vegetable) things become automatic -> mindless -> lacking awareness ∘ Checklist

    Better than better way -> mindful checklist ∘ Beyond yes/no -> can only answer if you’re paying attention -> notice -> care -> grow, recognizing you don’t know

    Notice the changes in people

    Hyper awareness • Hyper understanding

    Believe there’s a right answer ∘ any experience is

    only experienced through you

    Equal choices ∘ Choose your adventure

  • Losing (5/13/25)

    You are so fucking tired of losing -> how about doing some fucking winning then mother fucker. Can you? You can figure out what to do to get these dubs ∘ Winning only ∘ Victory over everything 𖤍

    Victory

    What can we do to be

    Victorious 𖤍

    Fortunate (5/13/25)

    I make my own luck 🍀

    EFFORT

    Control your destiny

    Nobody can judge your effort

    It’s raining. You gonna let that stop you?

    …

    Fuck no.

    Fools party; kings celebrate

    Show up & be your best

    Believe in it (5/13/25)

    Success is all you ∘ intention

    Effort ∘ Work ∘ Dominate

    Make the decision to choose who you are

    Greatness in the mirror

    Closer to Greatness • Willing to

    be the outlier • the weird one

    Stand out ∘ When they don’t

    understand you, you’re doing it

    right. Trying to get it.

    Purpose.

    I don’t need to jerk off.

    Positive production

    Victory ∘ Champion mentality

    Righteous actions

    Will love be there? (5/13/25)

    Can you love endlessly? Without garnering hurt for yourself or others? What can we do to make life

    Workin’ on the roads (5/14/25)

    again ∘ ∘ ∘ Own your time

    Escape the matrix ∘ Make

    lots of money ✧

    What does victory taste like

    What does winning feel like

    What can you do to win?

    What do you have within

    Positive Righteous Glory (5/14/25)

    Training

    Hope ∘ Belief • ^Your Vision will come true

    Robert (5/10/25)

    is the name of the New Pope. I don’t have any expectations. I just hope he can stop the ▇▇ of kids by our Catholic Priests.

    ♱

    What can we do? Change the narrative

    Korea (5/11/25)

    I want to learn Korean & Arabic

    Every puzzle’s

    constructed differently

    – Kobe

    You are God’s favorite (5/14/25)
  • Optimal state of consciousness

    total absorption -> action, awareness

    time dilates -> speeds up -> total focus on task

    Mental & physical • Experience

    Phenomenological • Peak performance

    Sense of control -> things we feel like we normally can’t -> autotelic • Euphoric

    Extraordinary levels

    Hyperactive smiles -> no frowns (auto)

    Effortless effort • propelling

    Altered state of consciousness

    Overflowing with joy ∘

    Perfectly ∘ Seamlessly

    Constant • Consistent experience

    “Be the One” (6/22/25)

    Imagination is more important than knowledge

    What do we believe in?

    Continuing

    (6/26/25)

    Embrace change

    Embrace your shadow

    Embrace your garden

    “Articulate as fuck” (6/29/25)

    Standing outside the gym ∘ the sun shines upon this notepad.

    My thoughts at current are slim to value, at least to the interest of my ego. Please excuse this lapse. Or at least forgive my sadness.

    ₊˚ ✧ ‿︵‿୨୧‿︵‿ ✧ ₊˚

    “you are so tenacious in your undertakings” -Z

  • Welcome! (1/27/25)

    To the peanut gallery, where your

    attention is my life’s purpose. My sarcasm

    may Run deep at times, but please know, when

    I am sarcastic, it’s genuine.

    “Wife or a Man?…so confused”

    “…text to a friend.”

    Out of time …

    so let’s begin!

    …most horrifying for the

    Reader…

    interpreting it as

    imagine ∘solidified•

    Genuine intuition

    & Creativity

    Super intelligent intellectuals

    Frankenstein Syndrome (1/28/25)

    New corner of ∘ ∘ ∘ rooted in

    modern science • Natural forces

    Reason • ∘ Sensation • ∘ Passions • ∘ Brain

    Literacy • ∘ Cunning • ∘ Super intelligence

    Control • ∘ What’s in your control? Be

    careful to know.

    <-• literary cure ∘->

    the dumbest argument you’ve

    ever heard…

    Enjoying the company

    Monetize it…we don’t need to

    monetize, we can do it cuz we’re

    friends!

    Great gentleness

    bright face

    Patient kindness -> Grand scheme of

    things

  • Environment ∘ Strength demanding skills

    High level skills ➙ not stressful

    Very powerful; Proper training/learning/living

    just drew a bloody bit

    A GUST of Wind Whistled

    Wildly without repose

    @ 10:50pm –

    I wish that we will stop hurting

    each other. May we spread good love

    and good life with each other

    SO that our future presents are

    full of success we work so persistently

    towards in the midst of our current

    presence. Keep going, keep loving ღ

  • January 7, 2025 (green walls)

    Belief in jesus belief in God belief in Glory belief in the righteous belief in the undying resolution of perceptual reckoning within that which is gaining for the great collective consciousness and never falters even in the face of doubt and why not willingly wander without unwinding whereabouts we’ll wonder warily wanting wrought ways wavering underneath our beautiful human feet that traverse those mighty deserts beside such magnificent beasts as the cheetah, the leopard and tiger, why not lion, bear even, perhaps the hippo in all its glory, let us roar beside their might and never forget the passion through the air we instilled with our energy. Through this, glory is finally realized and passed on.

    Lightning through the skies . Guarantee Victory for yourself and emerge from the waves a new being, that which glows in the presence of Earth as if to have carried with your physiology something unknown to the land yet familiar enough to be welcomed with open air by the rainforests and you breathe life into the rocks as the skies play between blue and black.

    Shadowy silhouettes walking past green walls lit by street lights powered by the conglomerates that have meetings they go to with suits before going back to their family where his daughter got home late and had green paint on her sleeve and he wanted to ask her about it but he decided based on some stuff in a book he read he would just leave it be and let her live her life. It turned out she was working on a commissioned painting of the Earth behind her friend’s mom’s neighbor’s coffee shop who heard she was a good artist and she was planning on telling her parents when she was done and was so relieved when she noticed the paint on her jacket and no one else noticed anything. 

  • okra

    Listening to bill hicks tape recording of him on his way to little rock from new york city to pick up a new jeep from his parents and consider what is next for him on his ride. He talked about how he wasn’t excited about anything, how he felt subdued. He went to cracker barrel. Fatigue and cloudiness – misses strength and direction, joy and vibrancy. Who knows what will happen – just following heart moment by moment. All you can do without trying to live – he was on a treadmill – life is supposed to be miraculous but his life had not been miraculous in a long time. Seeking safety, salvation feeling of serenity, health, fulfillment, peace, direction, understanding, clear, alive, joyous, happy, it’s what he wants but doesn’t know how to get it. Dramatic move leaving new york and going on an adventure. I hope lord hears this and helps me get happiness. Regular exposure on national television. Gig to gig. Slump around the country. Needs rest figure out what i want to do – where is my focus? I need a change in my lifestyle. Not many funny thoughts, not a lot of excitement. Not gonna cut it. Gotta be a change, my salvation comes from me. Can’t think straight. Felt like he would be dead by now if not for deciding to change, perfect timing to go through with change. Felt success with stand-up. New albums. Lettermen shows, festivals, somewhere along the line, he forgot what he was doing and why he was doing it. Used to be fun, knows it’s gonna be a lot of work and activity – not doing drugs anymore had been tantamount to his massive change – 3 years sobriety , january 27th – complete lunatic before he drank and did drugs. Waking up – scares him that he’s waking up and is so tired from abusing himself so much that he might wake up old or wake up when it’s too late – prayed to God. Wake up too late. A lot that he wants to do and be a part of and feel. Laughter big part of it, music big part of it. Pray that he can wake up and see truly. 1000 miles! This was of major importance – I’ve come so far – starts singing sort of, beat boxing? Do dah do dah do dah rrreewrr dush duh lmao this guy rocks. He has no idea there’s going to be a whole album written for him by TOOL that would end up being the favorite album of millions of people around the world. Happy as shit to reach Arkansas. Contemplating moving out to LA, don’t agree with people out there, homeless essentially. January 5th 1992. Loves describing his surroundings. Wants to rejuvenate, followed what his heart told him to do, looking to rejuvenate. Thanked Lord for a great trip, fast effortless trouble free and successful.  

  • Typewriters & Korea

    April 24, 2019

    Music artists are certainly poets. I don’t think I want to be remembered as a poet though writing is a beautiful art. I’d rather be known as the story teller I suppose. I’m not sure what I want to be remembered as. Maybe I just want people to remember me as they do and I’ll remember myself as I am, the words are simply descriptions of the processes that we play out among each other. If there’s anything to learn from my own writing, I’m not sure what it might be. Maybe I’ll stop biting my nails one day. I’m so shitty at typing right now but I wonder how long humans have had such a problem. Maybe 100 years because that’s around the time typewriters were invented…just looked it up…1874. So about 150 years of typing for humans. Crazy how typing was probably the change that really propelled our technology to the point at which where we are today. There are so many smart people out there inventing so much shit all the time it’s impeccable. Rich folks always have crazy upper hands. Worked with a lady named Mrs. Kim, not sure her full name. She’s chill, and really helpful with the students. We talked quite a bit and a lot about South Korea which was really interesting to talk to someone who’s experiencing the stronghold between North and South Korea firsthand as a citizen with family in both countries. I wonder what they’d be like if they were more open to international culture.